Some paths don't look like progress...until you're far enough along to see what they were building.

In this episode, I'm sharing my full origin story for the first time in full context. From dropping out of college and figuring out my next move from my mom's couch, to my dad handing me a one-way train ticket to New York City to chase a dream I couldn't fully name yet. I built a life there... a brand, an identity, a version of success that made sense on the outside. But something was shifting on the inside.

Then I lost my job. No warning, no explanation. And the very next morning, I walked into a bookstore and found the only autographed copy of a book on prayer, and that moment changed everything.

This episode is about what happened after. The surrender. The rebuilding. The full circle moment of being back at my mom's house...but this time with clarity, peace, and purpose instead of confusion. What once felt like being stuck now feels like covering, support, and alignment for me and my son Tyler.

Nothing was wasted. The detours, the delays, the seasons that felt like setbacks — they were all part of it. And if you're in the middle of something that doesn't make sense yet, this one's for you.

You're not behind. You just might be in the middle of your own long way home. And eventually you'll realize...you were never lost. You were being led.

You can also watch the full episode on Youtube.

Join Among Us!

Grab the In You Journal

Leave a review on Facebook!

Support the CFM Podcast here!

Follow Natasha on Instagram!

Join Natasha's Group Chat here!

Follow CFM on Instagram!

CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.

Have you ever made a mistake and immediately felt the urge to fix it, hide it, or carry the weight of it on your own?

In this episode of Closed for Maintenance, Natasha reflects on a small moment that turned into a powerful reminder about grace, surrender, and the way we often try to repair things in our lives without bringing them to God first.

Sometimes the very things we worry have ruined everything are the same things God is inviting us to place back in His hands.

If you’ve ever felt like you’ve made a mess of something, or like there are parts of your life that need repair, this conversation is a gentle reminder that nothing is beyond restoration in God’s hands.

You can also watch the full episode on YouTube.

Grab the In You Journal

Leave a review on Facebook!

Support the CFM Podcast here!

Follow Natasha on Instagram!

Join Natasha's Group Chat here!

Follow CFM on Instagram!

CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.

In this deeply personal episode, Natasha reflects on what it means to learn how to live again after years of survival mode.

Growing up, she watched her parents work hard to provide but rarely slow down to enjoy life…a pattern she later realized she had quietly repeated in her own adulthood. At 37, a quiet realization changed everything: if she didn’t learn how to live now, she might spend her entire life just getting through it.

This episode is an honest conversation about breaking generational survival patterns, rediscovering joy that isn’t tied to circumstances, and learning how to stop postponing your life for a future that may never feel “ready.”

Natasha shares the practical ways she’s learning to live again in real time…from choosing joy rooted in God, to creating space for everyday living instead of periodic escape, to making intentional choices even when money, timing, or life feels uncertain.

If you’ve been holding your breath waiting for things to settle before you allow yourself to live… this episode is your permission to exhale.

You can also watch the full episode on YouTube.

Grab the In You Journal

Leave a review on Facebook!

Support the CFM Podcast here!

Follow Natasha on Instagram!

Follow CFM on Instagram!

CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.