Chapter 38. THEN: HOMEWARD BOUND

In this chapter, Notch finds himself covered in blood (not his own) and facing a 20-hour drive alone with his thoughts. He decides to get as far away as possible, avoiding states where he might be on the radar. As he drives, he reflects on the past 72 hours, during which he killed two men, escaped arrest, and abandoned a woman he loved, likely ruining her life. Overwhelmed by guilt and despair, he contemplates suicide but ultimately cannot go through with it. Instead, he decides to return to Tulsa to seek vengeance on six men who had harmed Gabriella 17 years ago. The chapter ends with Notch determined to kill these men, showing no mercy or kindness.

In this chapter, Notch arrives in Houston around 2:00 am, determined to find information about Clint Rodham. His quest leads him to make several mistakes, including revealing his connection to Rodham. He eventually meets a man named Frenchy at a sex club, who arranges a meeting with Rodham. Rodham, depicted as a lowlife, is questioned about Cherry Wood. Notch lies and says he saw her stripping at a club in Nogales, Mexico. Rodham makes several vulgar references to Cherry, A.K.A. Gabriella and Notch driven by rage, kills Rodham with a clock and shoots Frenchy, leaving him to die slowly. The chapter ends with Notch reflecting on his actions and the loss of professionalism in his quest for vengeance.

In this chapter, Notch finds himself alone in Gabriella's house for the first time. He takes the opportunity to vacuum and then snoop around, discovering various items that give him insight into Gabriella's life. He finds a small record collection, a variety of books, some recreational drugs, and alcohol. He also goes through her closet, imagining her in different outfits, which leads to a moment of self-awareness about his own nudity.

A knock at the door interrupts his thoughts, and a delivery boy named Doug returns his cleaned and pressed clothes. Notch generously tips Doug and then decides to kill time by reading "Life on the Mississippi" by Mark Twain. He discovers that the book is a first edition, signed by Samuel Clemens, which deepens his admiration for Gabriella.

As he prepares to propose to Gabriella, he realizes he doesn't have a ring and seeks advice from Missus Kelly, a neighbor. Missus Kelly, who insists on being called Harriet, offers him some heartfelt advice and directs him to a local jewelry store. However, his plans are interrupted by a visit from Police Commissioner Fortier, who reveals that he knows about Notch’s past and the murder he committed in 1963.

The Commissioner gives Notch three options: face a deadly confrontation, be arrested and extradited, or leave the state and never return. The protagonist, realizing the gravity of the situation, decides to leave, despite his deep feelings for Gabriella. He makes the bed, changes clothes, and leaves without a note, feeling the weight of his past actions and the inevitability of his fate.

The chapter ends with Notch contemplating his future as he crosses the Mississippi River, symbolizing his transition from one life to another.