1073 - From Suicide to Purpose: Silas St. John's Remarkable Transformation (Freedom Week, Pt 2)

In this powerful episode, Silas St. John shares how over a decade of pornography addiction and hidden shame led him to deep despair and suicidal thoughts. Despite years of trying to quit on his own, the isolation only made things worse.

Everything began to change when Silas finally reached out for help and entered a process that addressed his emotions, identity, and connection—not just his behavior. Today, Silas is living in freedom, clarity, and hope.

This conversation is a reminder that no one is too far gone, and that real freedom begins when we stop fighting alone.

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Chapters:

• (00:00) Introduction to Silas’ story
• (01:40) How porn addiction began and escalated
• (04:10) Years of hiding, shame, and isolation
• (06:30) Feeling trapped and losing hope
• (08:45) The moment everything broke
• (11:10) Suicidal thoughts and rock bottom
• (13:55) Reaching out for help
• (16:20) Why willpower and behavior change failed
• (18:45) What actually started healing
• (21:30) Identity, emotions, and connection