What I Wish We Knew

The Memos of an Undiagnosed Autistic with a Side of Post-Traumatic Stress

I am “that guy”. I know why they ran. I made them uncomfortable. I am the reason a lot of people don’t answer their phones. I have been fired, kicked out of school, in debt, separated, fired, evicted, in deeper debt, lost a business, kicked out of school again, fired, divorced, even deeper debt, kicked out of a band, labeled as “un-hirable”, closed another business, fired, unable to buy groceries, oh-my-goodness-how-far-into-debt-are-they-going-to-let-me-go…
And now, I have a beautiful wife (who used to hate my guts), two great kids, a job I enjoy, a successful hobby, an imaginary dog, and, most of all, peace with the world I live in.

I was not diagnosed as autistic until I was in my 50s. I actually discovered I was autistic in my 40s, but work needed something official. Up until then, I have had to navigate through a world I had difficulty understanding and communicating with. I didn’t understand it, and it didn’t understand me.

This book isn't going to be a typical book. I gave up on that years ago. Instead, I would like to share how the world works inside my head.These are memos of my journey. Enjoy.