The Girl I Am, Was, and Never Will Be
A Speculative Memoir of Transracial Adoption
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Part memoir, part speculative fiction, The Girl I Am, Was, and Never Will Be explores the often surreal experience of growing up as a mixed-Black transracial adoptee.
Dream Country author Shannon Gibney returns with The Girl I Am, Was, and Never Will Be, a book woven from her true story of growing up as a mixed-Black transracial adoptee and fictional story of Erin Powers, the name Shannon was given at birth, a child raised by a white, closeted lesbian.
At its core, the novel is a tale of two girls on two different timelines occasionally bridged by a mysterious portal and their shared search for a complete picture of their origins. Gibney surrounds that story with reproductions of her own adoption documents, letters, family photographs, interviews, medical records, and brief essays on the surreal absurdities of the adoptee experience.
The end result is a remarkable portrait of an American experience rarely depicted in any form.
* This audiobook includes a downloadable PDF of images, documents and resources from the book.
PLEASE NOTE: When you purchase this title, the accompanying PDF will be available in your Audible Library along with the audio.
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★ "An ambitiously authentic adoption story where fiction does the work of truth, and archives, correspondence, and health records provide the roots of fantasy."—Kirkus Reviews, starred review
★ "A fantastical, transcendent memory collage that shirks convention in search of what is real and true about familial bonds."—PW, starred review
★ "Readers will praise the raw honesty and insight in this lovingly crafted memoir."—Booklist, starred review
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- Kevin
- 01-06-25
The sci-fi parts of parallel worlds and time wormholes
I really like this interpretation of this memoir. I wish there was more and more exotic material.
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- Bridget
- 01-31-23
What a blessing this young woman is to both families!!
Gibney is a master storyteller! I would recommend to everyone!!it left me wondering if the wormhole was real…
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- Lucreshia Grant
- 04-24-25
I love it!!
It was beautiful written and story so deep. I was happy to be there with all of this family.
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