The 3 Breakups That Broke Me

Healing anxious attachment is deeply personal work. And I know that better than anyone, because I've had to do it myself.

In this deeply personal episode, I'm opening up about the three relationships that broke me wide open and ultimately transformed me into a more secure, self-aware version of myself. For the first time on the podcast, I'm going fully off-script to share raw, real stories from my own romantic past.

The long-distance relationship where I discovered infidelity, chose to look past it, and paid the price. He eventually ended things without warning, and my attempts to find closure afterward only made it worse.

The college acquaintance who resurfaced a decade later with electric chemistry. I shared some of the most vulnerable parts of myself with him at one of the hardest moments of my life. But he had just ended an engagement and wasn't ready for what I was. His exit sent me straight to therapy and, ultimately, to this work.

The connection that was electric from the start and moved faster than either of us probably should have let it. It ended abruptly, but because of how quickly our lives had become intertwined, the fallout lingered far longer than it should have.

I reflect on the anxious attachment patterns I lived through firsthand: the hypervigilance, the protest behaviors, the people-pleasing, the moments I ignored glaring red flags because the feeling of connection outweighed the wisdom of logic. I get honest about what it felt like to be coaching clients toward secure attachment while quietly falling apart in my own love life, and how the shame and self-doubt that followed became the very thing that deepened my healing for good.

If you've ever repeated the same painful patterns in love and wondered why, this episode will help you see those patterns more clearly in your own life, understand what was really driving them, and find some comfort in knowing that growth is possible no matter how many times you've stumbled. Healing isn't linear, and this episode is proof of that.

Healing resources for anyone struggling with anxious attachment:

• Read dozens of free blogs on how to heal the anxious attachment style on my website, crackliffe.com
• Grab a copy of my new book, Needy No More: The Journey From Anxious to Secure Attachment, at crackliffe.com/needy
• Explore my downloadable healing toolkit for anxious attachers at crackliffe.com/starterkit
• Learn more about the Needy No More coaching program and set up a free consultation at crackliffe.com/coaching
• Follow @crackliffe on Instagram and TikTok for tons more content on all things healing anxious attachment

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