The ILLUSION of the self ... experienced in duality

essays

De: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Narrado por: Virtual Voice

I repeat myself that i need to see life from totally different perspectives.

Or at least more than this perspective which is so related to the self.
Unfortunately ... one the stage of the real life, i just can't apply those theoretical concepts.
Life continues and everything is related with the self.
I use to say a lot ... i ... mine ... my ....
Anyone can see and feel my illusory egocentrism.
Most probably is like ... a disease, which i am suffering of since i was a little baby.
And ... i can't fix myself.
So, I've started to write what is wrong.
Like a self therapy.
Defining the illusion i am living in.
In fact ... my illness.
I've heard people calling that ... the illusion of the self and i really want to penetrate deeply this concept.
To cure myself.
So ... i start meditating.
Analysing and defining my own existence, but trying to convince myself ... that i am not my body, i am not my feelings or emotions ... and actually that i am not the one i see on the stage of life.
It's weird.
But an interesting exercise.
And of course .... I need to do it, cause i had enough of suffering.
Of the illusory drama, that i am alive and don't really know how i should act into the so called ... real world.
So ... i write.
As self therapy.
Realising that the first sentence i need to start with is ... "I was an idiot, i am an idiot and most probably I'll continue being an idiot."