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First, Become Ashes

By: K.M. Szpara
Narrated by: Aaron Landon, Avi Roque, Briggon Snow, Graham Halstead
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K. M. Szpara follows his explosive debut novel Docile with First, Become Ashes, a fantastic standalone adventure that explores self-discovery after trauma and outgrowing abusive origins over the course of an American road trip.

The Fellowship raised Lark to kill monsters.
His partner betrayed them to the Feds.
But Lark knows his magic is real, and he’ll do anything to complete his quest.

For 30 years, the Fellowship of the Anointed isolated its members, conditioning them to believe that pain is power. That magic is suffering. That the world beyond the fence has fallen prey to monsters. But when their leader is arrested, all her teachings come into question.

Those touched by the Fellowship face a choice: How will they adjust to the world they were taught to fear, and how will they relate to the cult's last crusader, Lark? For Kane, survival means rejecting the magic he and his lover suffered for. For Deryn, the cult's collapse is an opportunity to prove they are worth as much as their Anointed brother. For Calvin, lark is the alluring embodiment of the magic he's been seeking his entire life.

But for Lark, the Fellowship isn’t over. Before he can begin to discover himself and heal a lifetime of traumas, he has a monster to slay.

First, Become Ashes contains explicit sadomasochism and sexual content, as well as abuse and consent violations, including rape.

A Macmillan Audio production from Tor.com

©2021 K.M. Szpara (P)2021 Macmillan Audio
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  • Categories: LGBTQ+

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Uneven but some really great writing from Szpara

A little bit of good, experienced editing and this could have been a really great read. I thought the female narrators weren't up to the standard of the rest of the performances and material. The men were excellent. The ending is too rushed. Surely after so much compelling, thought provoking drama one wouldn't have expected the conclusion to just fall into place without some thoroughly, deep, lush and twisted emotions, especially with such complicated dynamics between several characters. I think it could have been better if the author had taken out some repetitive material in the middle of the book and elaborated on the new situations and relationships in the last chapters which I thought were very unsatisfying. I also admit to getting lost and confused sometimes in the audiobook because scenes can change very quickly without warning or resolution. But it is worth sticking to it because parts are riveting. There's some absolutely beautiful writing here and I intend to read it again. I looking forward to the next book because the author has some real potential, IMHO.

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