Borderline Personality Disorder. "What the hell was that?" raged Rachel Reiland when she read the diagnosis written in her medical chart. As the 29-year-old accountant, wife, and mother of young children would soon discover, it was the diagnosis that finally explained her explosive anger, manipulative behaviors, and self-destructive episodes - including bouts of anorexia, substance abuse, and sexual promiscuity. With astonishing honesty, Reiland's memoir reveals what mental illness feels like and looks like from the inside, and how healing from such a devastating disease is possible through intensive therapy and the support of loved ones.
©2004 Rachel Reiland (P)2010 Audible, Inc.
Anyone diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) or Post Taurmatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) will identify with the heroine as she struggles first to accept these new labels and then to fully participate in her treatment and recovery.
The book is not particularly well written; not particularly well narrated; but, it is the only book I have found that offers a first-person account of living through the traumas, diagnoses and treatment of BPD & PTSD. It was painful to listen to and yet tremendously helpful in my own efforts to manage, treat and shed mental illness.
If you suffer from mental illness or have a loved one who does AND can bear some graphic descriptions of sexual trauma (these are also very easy to skip) and mediocre writing, this book may be worth the read. Over and over I found myself saying,
As a long time psych nurse and someone with a close family member with the same disorder, I can vouch for the reality of this story and the havoc that is reaked upon both the person with the disorder, & the dysfunctional family whose insanity helped create the illness.
I would have like to see it delve more into detail of her family of origin, but that probably is because I'm used to more details in my work. I imagine it's detailed enough for the average reader. I would definitely recommend this to anyone needing a better understanding of borderline personality disorder-especially family members & friends. It's quite informative without being technical. I give it an A++
This gripping story about a fragmented personality is a truly amazing insight into the workings, or failings, of the human mind and the psychiatrist who attempts to unravel the wounds and heal the very capable woman within. It is a fascinating glimpse into mental illness as few survivors can, or would, reveal in such embarrassing detail. It was a tremendous testament to the skilled psychiatrist who endured hours of verbal abuse from the "child" aspect of the woman and never lost patience or acceptance of this woman. He gently probed with leading questions, helping her to reveal events from the her painful past and achieving peace with them, and ultimately restoring her united identity. The patient was a very intelligent woman who had a herculean struggle with all of her metaphorical "demons," sometimes seeming that she might fail to conquer them and succumb to anorexia or suicide. The book is a powerful testimony to the need for mental health coverage, detailing as it did the years-long struggle in one-on-one therapy of this woman. It is no less a struggle than the chemotherapy of cancer patients or that of organ transplantation. This book would probably make a great play or movie.
The way the story was told. The point of view it was presented from and how generously candid the author was in expressing her experiences. Her honesty was brave and made this book so real, anyone dealing with BPD or living someone who has been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder will relate and enjoy this book immensely. I know I did and overall it gave our family something to look forward to.
The main character and of course the therapist the repoir was perfect and drew me to both.
Her voice was great at conveying the mood of the text and most of the time had me feeling like I was eavesdropping to a real conversation and not just listening to a book.
Yes, but it can only be listened to in pieces because it evokes such real feelings and thought from you as a listener.
A wonderful book wish more books were written from such experiences with this real feel.
Thank you for sharing your story Rachel. I have much more compassion and knowledge about BPD because of you and can't thank you enough for your bravery in coming forward with the truth of your disorder. I'm amazed how you came through this and am so proud of you for the bravery you displayed and for who you are today.
This book was insightful for those with an interest in BPD. It more or less outlines a specific individuals' path with borderline personality disorder and is by no means a book that gives advice or suggestions to assist someone else suffereing with this disorder. It did give me a feeling of 'I'm not alone in this'.
I bought this book to get some insight into the disorder prior to completing a course on BPD. I found her description of experiences such a wonderful background on which to base the academic studies I embarked on after listening to the book.
It is realistic.
The therapist is an awesome man.
I would have listened to it in one sitting if I could. It was simply too long to do so.
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