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My Soul to Lose | [Rachel Vincent]

My Soul to Lose

It was supposed to be a fun day, shopping at the mall with her best friend. Then the panic attack started and Kaylee Cavanaugh finds herself screaming, unable to stop. Her secret fears are exposed, and it's the worst day of her life....Until she wakes up in the psychiatric unit. She tries to convince everyone she's fine--despite the shadows she sees forming around another patient and the urge to scream which comes burbling up again and again.
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Publisher's Summary

It was supposed to be a fun day, shopping at the mall with her best friend. Then the panic attack started and Kaylee Cavanaugh finds herself screaming, unable to stop. Her secret fears are exposed, and it's the worst day of her life....Until she wakes up in the psychiatric unit.

She tries to convince everyone she's fine - despite the shadows she sees forming around another patient and the urge to scream that comes burbling up again and again.

Everyone thinks she's crazy. Everyone except Lydia, that is. Another patient with some special abilities....

A digital-only prequel to Rachel Vincent's Soul Screamers series.

Read an exclusive essay about this series and learn more about Rachel Vincent.

©2009 Rachel Vincent; (P)2009 Audible, Inc.

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    Ali Bethlehem, PA 08-07-12
    Ali Bethlehem, PA 08-07-12 Member Since 2011

    Love fantasy books, usually with a strong female character. I also enjoyed just about anything from J.D Robb I am a fan of mysteries as well. I also enjoy funny and quirky novels anything from Molly Harper is a winner in my book. Since listening to audio books is important to me while I travel I also follow certain narrators as well.

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    "I was Pulled into this from the start"

    This was a startling book, I admit I was shocked at how quickly I was pulled into this, Rachel is an author I will defiantly read again.

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    Starr 08-03-12
    Starr 08-03-12 Member Since 2011
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    "Free! Interesting for a teaser"
    Where does My Soul to Lose rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?

    It was a free teaser and was an interesting start to a series.


    Any additional comments?

    I wasn't sure about the series but I'll probably listen to it because of the teaser.

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    Alyssa Reid 07-28-12
    Alyssa Reid 07-28-12 Member Since 2014
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    "Very good lead in to series"

    This novella shows a brief glimpse into Kaylee's life before she knew the truth about her history and her powers. What could be more frightening than have your world turn upside down and be assaulted with a terrifying reality. Perhaps only waking up in a mental health hospital chained to a bed with no memory of arrival. Feeling lost and alone and betrayed by family- Kaylee has to figure out how to best navigate this situation as well as try to figure out whether she is actually crazy or why her panic attacks turn her world upside down.

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    Gwendolyn 05-10-12
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    "Not very believable"

    I love a great suspense story, but I could not get into this story at all. The main character is just so flat, almost dense. The lines so simple and just not believable. I got this free short story hoping to find a new author, but I don't think I'll be wasting my credits on this one.

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    Teresa NAMPA, ID, United States 04-30-12
    Teresa NAMPA, ID, United States 04-30-12 Member Since 2015

    Hello, my name is Teresa and I'm an addict.

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    "Enjoyed the story."

    I down loaded this as a free audible and it was worth it. I enjoyed the story. It is for teen but I like to read everything. I have since downloaded and listened to the first book and enjoyed it too.

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    Julieann United States 04-19-12
    Julieann United States 04-19-12 Member Since 2009
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    "Wow, teen series without vampires!"
    Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

    Yes, I would recommend this to my friends. Somewhere within this genre there are books that tell great stories, absorbing plots and genuine, deep characters. I'm in my 40's and have never been one to cast away so called, "teen" books as there are excellent authors writing excellent stories. HOWEVER...my friends only became interested when the characters included vampires, werewolves and dense high school girls. I hate to harp on this but enough is enough! I have nothing against the Twilight books, I saw the movies but I do not have true to life cut-out characters in my bedroom nor will I clear my schedule in November when the last movie is shown at the theatres. But each to his own. If you're interested in the teen genre, there are good, imaginative stories to be read and this is one of them. Considering I've listened only to this short intro, I cannot say with absolute certainty that the series won't introduce a vampire but at least it isn't the only draw to the book! Young or old (yes, like me at 40...lol) I think you will enjoy this. Give it a listen, its free and by the time you're finished, I predict that you'll be tempted to buy the next book in the series.


    What was one of the most memorable moments of My Soul to Lose?

    One of the most memorable moments in the book (and there are several packed into this listen) occured at the beginning of the story. Kaylee ((I may not be spelling her name correctly, my apologies) and her friend head over to the mall, chatting and behaving like typical teenage girls. Suddenly Kaylee's mouth clenches shut, her eyes go wide and she stands frozen, caught up in what Kaylee believes is a panic attack. Her friend attmepts to comfort her, they sit down, they talk. They try shopping once again and right in the middle of Sears, Kaylee sees something that again, throws her into complete terror, clenches her jaw shut in an atteimpt to stifle a scream but this time, she looses all self-control. To speak of what happens to her next would be a story spoiler. I will say that Kaylee has the ability to plainly see what it is that may or may not surround a person. It is not clear if what she sees is potentially dangerous to everyone, dangerous only to the person it surrounds or simply a foreshadowing of events that will happen to this individual. I will have to buy the next book in the series to find out what is true.


    Have you listened to any of Amanda Ronconi’s other performances before? How does this one compare?

    No, I haven't listened to anything other performances by Amanda Ronconi. I absolutely love the performance she gives in this book. I was really impressed by the way she was able nail the, "teenage" girls giving them the typical scarcastic, self-absorbed way they think and speak, even down the, "like" word interspersed in their sencentes.
    She's a great performance artist and I will search for other books she narrates!


    Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

    I don't know about extreme but it was truly moved by the sheer terror Kaylee experienced when they were in Sears. She was wholly and completely caught in a moment of fear, loss of self control, clawing at her neck in an attempt to make it stop, screaming without the power to make it stop and then colapsing on the floor, being removed by security guards because she lost all sense of herself. She was utterly consumed by the images and the feelings they provoked. I truly felt sorry for her.


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    BooksOverTV Sacramento, United States 04-17-12
    BooksOverTV Sacramento, United States 04-17-12

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    If you could sum up My Soul to Lose in three words, what would they be?

    Getting other books


    Who was your favorite character and why?

    The Aunt was my favorite character because she seemed so nonchalant.


    Which scene was your favorite?

    The last scene was my favorite with the girl "taking too much".


    Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

    yes


    Any additional comments?

    Now, I must read the other 2-3 books in the series!

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    NiceGirlsBkBlog Noblesville, In, United States 01-20-12
    NiceGirlsBkBlog Noblesville, In, United States 01-20-12 Member Since 2010
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    "Great begining to a wonderful series!"

    All Kaylee Cavanaugh wanted to do was go to the mall with her best friend, and plot the demise of her recent ex-boyfriend. Unfortunately, something strange and dark will keep Kaylee from enjoying her shopping trip. This isn???t one of Kaylee standard anxiety attacks, and the only way to release the pain is to scream! After blacking out, she wakes to find that she has been strapped to a bed in mental health ward of the local hospital. Kaylee is confused by what she saw at the mall, and everyone seems to think that she has a mental breakdown.

    I loved seeing Kaylee as a somewhat average teenager. All she really worried about was school and how to get back at he ex-boyfriend. She is almost carefree, in comparison to Kaylee once she finally understands what and who she is. You get to see glimpses of the strong character that she will become throughout the series.

    It was great to see Kaylee???s best friend Em, as well. I just adore her most of all, because she sticks with Kaylee through thick-and-thin. They have such a sweet, innocent friendship at this point in the story. We also get to see Nash in his all is alpha, jock glory. I would have like to see just a little interaction between Kaylee and Nash, but that is probably me just being greedy.

    Amanda Ronconi???s narration of MY SOUL TO LOSE was spot on! I find that it???s hard to listen to most YA audiobooks, because they narrator either sound to old or far to young. Amanda was able to convey everything from the light-hearted mood in the beginning to the despair Kaylee felt towards the end of the book.

    My only complaint about this audiobook, is the fact that is ended so quickly. I really thought there should be just a little more. Other then that, I really enjoyed this audiobook prequel. It was great to take a look back and see how it all started. It was fun to see a Kaylee not so burden down with problems of the world on her shoulder. MY SOUL TO LOSE was a great introduction to the Soul Screamers world and it's characters.

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    Eric Sharpsville, Pennsylvania, United States 11-26-11
    Eric Sharpsville, Pennsylvania, United States 11-26-11 Listener Since 2010
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    "Such a phenomenal story!"

    Your mind will take you places like you've never been before when you listen to a story like this! I've listened to this many times and it's a psychological story that you'll never forget! The narrator's voice is soothing as you go even deeper into this story!

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    Harry WHEATON, IL, United States 10-20-11
    Harry WHEATON, IL, United States 10-20-11 Member Since 2012

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    "Fun"

    This book series falls under supernatural, with out being "same stuff, different day". There's alot of fun in it and Vincent created a world that you can get lost in... Probably a series for younger readers and maybe a little geared for the female reader, never the less... I, a 30 y/o male, read&listen to a wide range of SiFi/Fantasy: from Harry Potter to Interview with a Vampire to Harry Dresden. I enjoy this and It's something other then twilight to share with my 14y/o sister.

    Amanda Ronconi is amazing and brings the characters and the world to life for me.

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