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If You Find Me Audiobook

If You Find Me

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Publisher's Summary

A deeply compelling mix of high school drama and page-turning mystery that asks profound questions about family, truth, and love

Fourteen-year-old Carey and six-year-old Jenessa have been living in the woods with their mother for as long as they can remember; the sheltering trees and a broken-down camper are all they know. But what they’ve never been told is that Carey vanished from the real world ten years ago, when their mother took her, causing an uproar in the media - and in her father’s life.

Now, abandoned by the mother they trusted, they’re often left alone for long periods of time to fend for themselves - but, in one moment, everything changes. They’re found by Carey’s father and thrust into a bright and perplexing new world, one of shopping malls, shiny appliances, new clothes, and mouth-watering food. Carey desperately wants to believe in this new reality but is held back by a deep and painful loyalty to her mentally ill mother, who gave Carey her violin and taught her how to play the soaring music that helps her survive.

And then there’s the other piece of Carey’s past that haunts her, the story of what happened to her and Jenessa on that dark night in the woods - the reason Jenessa hasn’t spoken a word in over a year. Will Carey ever be able to trust her father and his family enough to fit into this new life? Will Jenessa finally break her silence and ruin the cocoon of safety that Carey’s built so carefully around them? And what will happen if the secret comes out?

©2013 Emily Murdoch (P)2013 Blackstone Audio, Inc

What the Critics Say

“Grabbed me by the heart on page one and didn’t let go till the very last word. Murdoch’s language is lovely, her storytelling gripping.” (Carol Lynch Williams, PEN Award-winning author of The Chosen One)

“Within two pages, I was so hopelessly hooked, I felt like the story had attached itself to me…Original and suspenseful, but most of all, it was Carey’s voice that had me flipping the pages…One of those books you devour.” (Jennifer Brown, author of Hate List)

“Searing…Hurt my heart and will probably haunt my dreams—a beautiful book about survival, identity, family, love, and so much more.” (Jenny Downham, author of Before I Die)

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    Kara STRONGSVILLE, OH, United States 10-21-15
    Kara STRONGSVILLE, OH, United States 10-21-15 Member Since 2015
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    "No way is this a book for youth!!!!"

    All i can say is I am glad I listened. I take all reviews with a grain of salt....some will just be negative just for the heck of it. Yes it was shorter than I prefer.....but it was beautifully written. Regarding the narration? Tai Sammons read it exactly like it should of been.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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    Lisa 01-09-14
    Lisa 01-09-14
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    "Good writing"

    This is not an action packed drama with a lot of mystery, but it is a really good story. The narrator was perfect to portray the main character. It was interesting right from the start and kept my interest through the whole book. I hope this author comes out with more books.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Nicole PROVO, UT, United States 12-29-13
    Nicole PROVO, UT, United States 12-29-13 Member Since 2011
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    "LOVED THIS BOOK"
    Where does If You Find Me rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?

    This is one of my favorite books so far, the narrator did amazing with the voices and the book itself was great!! I would recommend this book, and I would listen to it again!


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    karstensmom Columbus, OH 04-10-13
    karstensmom Columbus, OH 04-10-13
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    "Well-written characters, good story!"

    Tai Sammons really brings this book to life. I truly enjoyed this book! The author does a beautiful job with the characters and storylines.

    3 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    Judy 07-25-14
    Judy 07-25-14 Member Since 2011

    I have nearly 450K miles on my van and I listen to a LOT of audiobook! I'm a musician and I listen as I travel from concert to concert.

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    "Please AUDIBLE, Display YA if SO!"
    Would you say that listening to this book was time well-spent? Why or why not?

    About halfway through this book it began to dawn on me that it seemed to be written for a younger audience. I looked it up and ...SURE ENOUGH...it's designed YA. This is the second time this has happened to me on AUDIBLE and I'm sort of miffed. I'm well over the age of 15!


    Would you ever listen to anything by Emily Murdoch again?

    Only if she writes something that's not written for teens.


    What do you think the narrator could have done better?

    I can't even answer this question.


    Was If You Find Me worth the listening time?

    No


    Any additional comments?

    PLEASE let your members know when a book is YA!

    56 of 84 people found this review helpful
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    mimi 09-19-15
    mimi 09-19-15
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    "Heart retching book but not my cup of tea"

    This a story that could be out of a soap opera but it has nothing to do with fantasy. So I'm not sure why it was in that category. Hard to get through.

    7 of 11 people found this review helpful
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    Elle (AKA PlantCrone) in the great NorthWest OREGON 11-23-15

    ELLE aka PlantCrone of the Great Pacific Northwest. I enjoy almost every genre-S/F, Action, Biographies and Histories & Romance

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    "Filled with pain and poetry-a meaningful listen"

    I became entranced with the poetry, both classical and that of author Murdoch that filled this complex story of 2 sisters and a mother who is the classic dysfunctional addict. The mother, who earns her meth filled life by prostitution and who leaves her two young girls alone in a small camber secreted in the backwoods of Tennessee for weeks and even months has made these two children into determined survivalists. They have raised themselves, killed and cleaned their own game in order to have food and gone thru horrors that we in a 'civilized' community can't imagine.

    Finally found by the eldest girl father, the girls struggle to learn how to incorporate themselves into a normal life. Terrible secrets are revealed.

    One of the most fascinating pieces of writing I've listened to in months, I wasn't able to put it down..it was an all nighter for me. I felt I came to know both girls, felt their pain and fear of the unknown, their inability to believe that the old path of starvation and freezing had come to an end, that the warm coats and gloves were really theirs to keep and the love they found was real.

    A book for any mother and, unlike other reviewers I found the narration to be easy on the ears, with a slight Tenn. woods accent that gave reality to the story.

    Well worth your credit.

    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Kandie Huntginton Beach, CA, United States 11-03-15
    Kandie Huntginton Beach, CA, United States 11-03-15 Member Since 2007
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    "Written for older teens, not adults."

    With the exception of a description concerning rape, this is not a book for adults. I purchased this selection on a deal, seriously not worth my time.

    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    J. Hill Tennessee 07-03-13
    J. Hill Tennessee 07-03-13
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    "Really good book."
    What did you love best about If You Find Me?

    The premise of the story was very interesting. A person often reads about a mother and children who go missing and presume they are either dead or hiding from the violent father/husband. This book makes you rethink this.


    What did you like best about this story?

    The way that the oldest daughter fought to keep her sister safe.


    Which character – as performed by Tai Sammons – was your favorite?

    The oldest daughter.


    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Reuven Nisser Garfield, NJ United States 03-27-13
    Reuven Nisser Garfield, NJ United States 03-27-13 Member Since 2016
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    "Getting Used"

    I want to give this story 4 and a half stars. It was gripping and sad. I cryed a lot. But it was too slow and full of questions for me. What will happen to Carrey now? Am I supposed to guess or is there a continuation in the making? I love open endings, but not when they are too opened. And I must say I found the plot rather expected. I wanted to see more every day life. That is, the first days took so much of the book. But again, it was an interesting story.
    I found it logical that the girls had book in the wood. Mom wanted to keep them busy somehow while she did what she did.
    Enjoy this ride.

    4 of 7 people found this review helpful

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