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If You Find Me Audiobook

If You Find Me

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Publisher's Summary

A deeply compelling mix of high school drama and page-turning mystery that asks profound questions about family, truth, and love

Fourteen-year-old Carey and six-year-old Jenessa have been living in the woods with their mother for as long as they can remember; the sheltering trees and a broken-down camper are all they know. But what they’ve never been told is that Carey vanished from the real world ten years ago, when their mother took her, causing an uproar in the media - and in her father’s life.

Now, abandoned by the mother they trusted, they’re often left alone for long periods of time to fend for themselves - but, in one moment, everything changes. They’re found by Carey’s father and thrust into a bright and perplexing new world, one of shopping malls, shiny appliances, new clothes, and mouth-watering food. Carey desperately wants to believe in this new reality but is held back by a deep and painful loyalty to her mentally ill mother, who gave Carey her violin and taught her how to play the soaring music that helps her survive.

And then there’s the other piece of Carey’s past that haunts her, the story of what happened to her and Jenessa on that dark night in the woods - the reason Jenessa hasn’t spoken a word in over a year. Will Carey ever be able to trust her father and his family enough to fit into this new life? Will Jenessa finally break her silence and ruin the cocoon of safety that Carey’s built so carefully around them? And what will happen if the secret comes out?

©2013 Emily Murdoch (P)2013 Blackstone Audio, Inc

What the Critics Say

“Grabbed me by the heart on page one and didn’t let go till the very last word. Murdoch’s language is lovely, her storytelling gripping.” (Carol Lynch Williams, PEN Award-winning author of The Chosen One)

“Within two pages, I was so hopelessly hooked, I felt like the story had attached itself to me…Original and suspenseful, but most of all, it was Carey’s voice that had me flipping the pages…One of those books you devour.” (Jennifer Brown, author of Hate List)

“Searing…Hurt my heart and will probably haunt my dreams—a beautiful book about survival, identity, family, love, and so much more.” (Jenny Downham, author of Before I Die)

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    Slim Courtland, Virginia 04-26-16
    Slim Courtland, Virginia 04-26-16

    Audio books are growing. I have listened to books for months now, But I prefer my books in paperback/hardback format.

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    "okay book"

    I liked this book and it's story line its an very interesting story had my attention from beginning to end.

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    Kara STRONGSVILLE, OH, United States 10-21-15
    Kara STRONGSVILLE, OH, United States 10-21-15 Member Since 2015
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    "No way is this a book for youth!!!!"

    All i can say is I am glad I listened. I take all reviews with a grain of salt....some will just be negative just for the heck of it. Yes it was shorter than I prefer.....but it was beautifully written. Regarding the narration? Tai Sammons read it exactly like it should of been.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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    Kandie Huntginton Beach, CA, United States 11-03-15
    Kandie Huntginton Beach, CA, United States 11-03-15 Member Since 2007
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    "Written for older teens, not adults."

    With the exception of a description concerning rape, this is not a book for adults. I purchased this selection on a deal, seriously not worth my time.

    4 of 5 people found this review helpful
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    bebe South Carolina 09-05-16
    bebe South Carolina 09-05-16 Member Since 2009

    Attorney - love to listen to audio books

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    "Wow - This is a good book"
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    I hope this author will write more books. She is an excellent writer with an excellent use of words and a gift for making you care about the characters. I was entranced from the first few words and did not stop listening until the end. Just could not stop!!
    The reader is excellent too. Listening to this book was a wonderful experience and I am so glad I chose it.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    BookReader Chicago, IL, United States 03-29-16
    BookReader Chicago, IL, United States 03-29-16 Member Since 2001
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    "If You Find Me"
    Any additional comments?

    If You Find Me is a novel written by Emily Murdoch, narrated by Tai Sammons … an unabridged audiobook 7 hrs and 51 mins in length. Of particular note, this is a debut novel released in 2013 and as of this writing, Emily Murdoch has not released another book.

    Briefly, this is the story of a four year old girl, Carrie, kidnapped by her meth-addicted mother. Carrie is hidden in a state campground and for the next 10 years is subjected to sexual and physical abuse beyond the comprehension of many. A second child is conceived in a drug-indused/related stupor by Carrie’s mother and Carrie rears and loves her baby sister until they are ultimately found by Carrie’s father.

    The story has the initial flavor of Nell, a movie based on a play about a wild child, who lived her entire life with her mother in an isolated mountain cabin. Unlike Nell however, the child in If You Find Me is self-educated, well read, and plays the violin. Although not stated within the book, Carrie’s mother can’t have been ‘all bad’ to have taught her to read, love to learn, and play the violin like a virtuoso. Carrie is not bitter, but a very loving, kind person. But … she has cigarette burns and scars on her back … so does the little sister. She is subjected to prostitution and rape. The conflicts are disturbing elements in the plot and I’m not sure this is realistic … but, there it is.

    Something bad happened in those woods that has caused a traumatic muteness in the younger sister. Carrie is certain any potential future is contingent upon keeping the secret … but, her little sister’s muteness is something Carrie needs to address. Thus is the thrust.

    Although the story is not specifically identified as young adult, the primary characters are teenagers - parties and high school are featured. The angst and fundamentally obnoxious attitudes of the teenager is evident in some characters, but most are unrealistically responsible super-kids, i.e., they-who-don’t-exist-except-in-the-minds-of-adults. But … this would make the book a great gift for a teenager.

    The story takes place in rural Tennessee and Tai Sammons does a terrific job with the southern accents. Narration is fine.

    Basically, the story is very well written, poetic at times. Murdoch does a terrific job with colloquialisms, the overall flavor of the rural environment, and the mind and motivations of Carrie.

    An enjoyable read/listen … but it is, in my opinion, young adult.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Lisa 01-09-14
    Lisa 01-09-14
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    "Good writing"

    This is not an action packed drama with a lot of mystery, but it is a really good story. The narrator was perfect to portray the main character. It was interesting right from the start and kept my interest through the whole book. I hope this author comes out with more books.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Nicole PROVO, UT, United States 12-29-13
    Nicole PROVO, UT, United States 12-29-13 Member Since 2011
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    "LOVED THIS BOOK"
    Where does If You Find Me rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?

    This is one of my favorite books so far, the narrator did amazing with the voices and the book itself was great!! I would recommend this book, and I would listen to it again!


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    karstensmom Columbus, OH 04-10-13
    karstensmom Columbus, OH 04-10-13
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    "Well-written characters, good story!"

    Tai Sammons really brings this book to life. I truly enjoyed this book! The author does a beautiful job with the characters and storylines.

    3 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    Judy 07-25-14
    Judy 07-25-14 Member Since 2011

    I have nearly 450K miles on my van and I listen to a LOT of audiobook! I'm a musician and I listen as I travel from concert to concert.

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    "Please AUDIBLE, Display YA if SO!"
    Would you say that listening to this book was time well-spent? Why or why not?

    About halfway through this book it began to dawn on me that it seemed to be written for a younger audience. I looked it up and ...SURE ENOUGH...it's designed YA. This is the second time this has happened to me on AUDIBLE and I'm sort of miffed. I'm well over the age of 15!


    Would you ever listen to anything by Emily Murdoch again?

    Only if she writes something that's not written for teens.


    What do you think the narrator could have done better?

    I can't even answer this question.


    Was If You Find Me worth the listening time?

    No


    Any additional comments?

    PLEASE let your members know when a book is YA!

    57 of 88 people found this review helpful
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    mimi 09-19-15
    mimi 09-19-15
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    "Heart retching book but not my cup of tea"

    This a story that could be out of a soap opera but it has nothing to do with fantasy. So I'm not sure why it was in that category. Hard to get through.

    8 of 12 people found this review helpful

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