I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way. Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn't teach me how to live. He didn't heal the pain. He didn't make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
Nell Hawthorne is in love with her life-long best friend, Kyle Calloway. Their young love is invincible and life is full of promise; then one night Kyle dies suddenly in a tragic accident and Nell is forever changed. She meets Kyle's older brother, Colton, for the first time at the funeral. They both struggle to move on with life as best they can. Years later, they meet again in New York City, and Colton realizes that Nell has never really gotten over Kyle's death. She seems to be harboring a deeply rooted pain, a heavy weight of guilt, and regret. He knows he shouldn't get involved, but he can't help himself. Trust doesn't come easily for either of them, and they both have demons. Together, they learn the purpose of pain and the meaning of healing, and the importance of forgiveness.
Mature Content Warning: 17+ for language, and adult situations
This audiobook contains an exclusive copy of Jasinda’s original song "Falling Into You."
©2013 Jasinda Wilder (P)2013 Jasinda Wilder
I read the reviews on this and was just so excited to read it. The books starts out lovely and you fall in love with the characters especially Kyle. After Kyle dies it all goes to hell. The story makes very little sense and Colton who I fully expected to adore was the most ridiculous hero I've ever read. His thug life back story was just plain dumb! Nell's issues were reasonable if I stretched, but his issues were just overdone. Just too many dynamics going on so he just was not a plausible character. The dialogue was just...ugh. So much "oh god" and "Nelly baby" that it drove me crazy. The plot after Colt and Nell got together was non-existent. Just strings of sex scenes put together without much romance. There was no love, just lust being interpreted as such. I hated the book all the more because it failed to live up to the potential it started with.
Not so sure
Falling Into You was at times awkward but altogether not a bad audio to listen to and pretty interesting. I believe I went looking for “romance” titles on audio, to broaden my horizons a bit, and Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder popped up. I marked it on my wishlist and ended up buying Bared To You by Sylvia Day instead. But the good Audible reviews of Falling Into You kept me coming back to it, so when I needed to burn some credits before putting my account on hold (so I can catch up on all the audios I have on my iPhone), I bought it.
It was a pretty good listen, actually.
Nell and Kyle are the best of friends. Their parents are friends, so they’ve known each other a long time, and then one day, the attraction is just there and they stumble into love with one another. It’s a sweet love, the kind of love we all hope to find in high school, and then wax poetry about staying together forever. Nell and Kyle seemed to really fit together well, and give themselves to each other.
Then Kyle tragically dies in front of Nell, a scene that Wilder wrote very well, and nearly broke my heart. She described the despair in Nell’s voice perfectly, right down to the mud on the tip of Kyle’s shoe laying in the rain. Because when you are in shock and a situation like that, you do see those kinds of things, and they do stick with you.
Nell is obviously destroyed by his death and nothing can console her. Kyle’s prodigal brother, Colton, comes back into town for the funeral, and they do share a moment, but only a moment. However, it is more than enough for Colton to begin pining for a girl he can’t have.
Sidenote: I think a lot of people might be squeamish that this is the story of a girl who is with two brothers at different stages of her life, but I wasn’t. I’ll touch on why in a bit.
Two years pass and the second half of the book begins with Colton’s voice, and it is sexy indeed. He’s damaged, but not dangerous (anymore). He’s not looking for anything more than to make his living when he sees her, and his world gets shaken up again.
The thing is, they are both still grieving. Nell is grieving inexorably for Kyle. She feels guilty for his death. Colton is grieving for the loss of his little brother that he didn’t even know very well – AND the continued loss of the family he still doesn’t have, because he’s an outcast. He doesn’t feel good enough for her, or for anyone, as a former thug on the streets of New York. Nell struggles with her attraction to Colton. It feels wrong, but Kyle’s dead and wouldn’t he want her to be happy, least of all with someone he loves already?
As two very damaged characters, I saw a lot of good in them together. I did feel like they made each other better people – and Nell was a completely different Nell than the Nell she was with when with Kyle. It was like a whole different character, and I guess she was, technically. Death does that to people, changes them. That’s why I had no problem that she was with both brothers at two different points in her life.
But the book was not without it’s faults:
He rips her panties off of her (literally ripping them to shreds), but she is looking for them later to put them back on. Some inconsistencies like that take place throughout the book
Other inconsistencies, like it’s mentioned he’s OCD, but that is never followed up on, or that he can’t read, but that’s never resolved either
This guy she was seeing in the first part of the second half of the book acts like he’s going to try to rape her. She does not turn him in, but let’s Colton and his old thug-life friends “handle” it – I hate that crap
The ending was kinda meh
And let’s talk about that ending. Nell misinterprets a lot, because he says he’d like to avoid something, and that something happens anyway. Instead of calling him, she leaves a note taped to her apartment door (which is stupid anyway, you’re inviting a break-in!) letting him know she’s “sorry.” But doesn’t tell him where she went. He of course deduces she went home so books a ticket out of NYC and without getting spoilery, all hell breaks loose, she ends up in the hospital and he’s declaring his love of her to their respective families.
They are still broken people at the end of it, and I know two years isn’t a long time to get over a loved one’s death, but it wasn’t a really happy novel, nor a very happy ending. But I still enjoyed the story. The thing is, I fell in love with Nell and Kyle. And then I fell in love with Nell and Colton. That is really hard for a writer to accomplish so I say well done.
passionate reader and vegan
This was a powerfully written and performed book. The story is quite strong and well developed. Anyone can read the description of the book so I won't bother with details. Suffice it to say that it is an incredible journey from teenagers in love to tragedy to survivor guilt. And then there is the reawakening of love, inviting more guilt. The characters of Nell (great name), Kyle and Colton are beautifully written and thought out...the writers voice is clear in her effort to add a dimension of substance to them and she totally succeeds. There were more than a few moments that I found myself tearing up as the struggle of a lifetime ensues for our characters. The lyrics to songs written by Colton are another testament to the writer's total immersion into the depth of the characters and their journey.
Enter the narrators...Gabriel Vaughn and Piper Goodeve. They were remarkable in their perception of the characters and capability to translate the written word into an extremely well performed narration. I don't think it could have been better. It is very rewarding when Audible uses a male/female team to make more reality than often one (even a good narrator) person can manage. Ms. Wilder should be very pleased at the final result of this pairing...it was wonderfully performed.
The song at the end of the book is stunning and the lyrics spoken in the book. But this is an actual performance....my ONLY issue was that it was not performed with the Colton Calloway or Nell Hawthorne guitar as was done in the book. But, Hell's Bells, it was stunning. Five glorious stars to this book of pain, growth and redemption by two people scarred by the circumstances of growing up.
DO. NOT. MISS. THIS. BOOK.
I rarely give a 5 star rating, but this one earned it. First thing you should know is, this is not a young adult book even though the characters are young in the beginning. Nell is in love with her very best friend. They've been friends since they were toddlers and now they've gone through high school together and getting ready to go to college when Kyle is killed in an accident. Nell kind of spins out of control after that. It's Kyle's brother Colton that finally helps her find her feet again and find love again.
The narration is excellent. Definitely worth the credit or cash!
I Love a great supernatural tale, a Love story, PNR, a Cool Mystery and Most Sci-Fi....if there are vampires, weres or witches in it, that's a plus! Basically I am a 40+ y/o young at heart woman rediscovering the wonderful world of books and am now addicted! Lol I LOVE AUDIBLE!!!!!
always is...but I only listened...so happy Jasinda is now on audible!!
Oh my heart broke when Nell finally let it all out...I could relate to her so much...a sad girl faking it through life...never allowing herself to grieve...pretending to be strong when she was so broken...I cried and cried!!!
They were good together...I especially liked Piper Goodeve...I am partial to female narrators...I would love to hear more from her...but Gabriel Vaughan was excellent also!!!
This whole book moved me...it was eloquent..well narrated...and just enough sexy to make you squirm and blush a bit...the sexy in this book is very toned down for Jasinda...I have read MUCH more erotic things that she has written...this book has just enough...it was great!!
Anyone who says this book is just smut smut smut is so wrong...this has a GREAT story line...great developed characters and was Heart breakingly BEAUTIFUL....no it is not for teens....if you like Jasinda Wilders writing...you will love this story...I like everything this woman writes...and this is going in my top faves...it really touched my heart, and left me wanting to know more about Nell and Colton...This is one I will listen to again! LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is a high school romance with a lot of explicit sex. It is not appropriate for teenagers, and I don't want to listen to it.
The narration was great and the characters were so beautifully written you could feel their pain. I can't believe how much this story made me cry. My heart broke for Nell. You know the tragedy is coming so you just keep waiting for it, when it does happen you can't believe it. This book will put you through the wringer emotionally. Nell's pain and journey during/after Kyle dies is gut wrenching. I loved this book but I don't think I could listen to it again, it's so emotionally draining. I literally had tears streaming down my face. One tissue isn't enough. Make sure you have enough time to listen for a while, you won't want to stop. I think there needs to be a second book to finish up the loose ends.
By reading the synopsis you're aware the Nell is in for a literal ride to hell & prays she can get back. Some time passes when we get to know the new non- improved Nell trying to find her way back to the living. When she reaches out to her dead boyfriends older brother Colton they both feel like that together they might be able to make a change for the better.
More real story, less stupid play by play sex? It was like two different books from start to finish...I don't get it. It was truly hard for me to finish this book.
Not the sequel to this one, that's for sure!
The performance was fine, liked the narrators. Both male and female were good.
Disappointment....eye rolling disappointment!!!
This could have been a good book...ruined with so much unnecessary sex. The characters did not have a chance to develop because they were to busy having sex and talking about sex or thinking about sex...ugh.
Author and avid audiobook listener!
The book just about lost me once it skipped ahead in time. N.Y. Part of story became irritating.
That Nell fell for Kyle's brother. So much potential there that wasn't explored.
Yeah. The narration was pretty good.
No, but I know there is one.
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