I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way. Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn't teach me how to live. He didn't heal the pain. He didn't make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
Nell Hawthorne is in love with her life-long best friend, Kyle Calloway. Their young love is invincible and life is full of promise; then one night Kyle dies suddenly in a tragic accident and Nell is forever changed. She meets Kyle's older brother, Colton, for the first time at the funeral. They both struggle to move on with life as best they can. Years later, they meet again in New York City, and Colton realizes that Nell has never really gotten over Kyle's death. She seems to be harboring a deeply rooted pain, a heavy weight of guilt, and regret. He knows he shouldn't get involved, but he can't help himself. Trust doesn't come easily for either of them, and they both have demons. Together, they learn the purpose of pain and the meaning of healing, and the importance of forgiveness.
Mature Content Warning: 17+ for language, and adult situations
This audiobook contains an exclusive copy of Jasinda’s original song "Falling Into You."
©2013 Jasinda Wilder (P)2013 Jasinda Wilder
I read the reviews on this and was just so excited to read it. The books starts out lovely and you fall in love with the characters especially Kyle. After Kyle dies it all goes to hell. The story makes very little sense and Colton who I fully expected to adore was the most ridiculous hero I've ever read. His thug life back story was just plain dumb! Nell's issues were reasonable if I stretched, but his issues were just overdone. Just too many dynamics going on so he just was not a plausible character. The dialogue was just...ugh. So much "oh god" and "Nelly baby" that it drove me crazy. The plot after Colt and Nell got together was non-existent. Just strings of sex scenes put together without much romance. There was no love, just lust being interpreted as such. I hated the book all the more because it failed to live up to the potential it started with.
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Falling Into You was at times awkward but altogether not a bad audio to listen to and pretty interesting. I believe I went looking for “romance” titles on audio, to broaden my horizons a bit, and Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder popped up. I marked it on my wishlist and ended up buying Bared To You by Sylvia Day instead. But the good Audible reviews of Falling Into You kept me coming back to it, so when I needed to burn some credits before putting my account on hold (so I can catch up on all the audios I have on my iPhone), I bought it.
It was a pretty good listen, actually.
Nell and Kyle are the best of friends. Their parents are friends, so they’ve known each other a long time, and then one day, the attraction is just there and they stumble into love with one another. It’s a sweet love, the kind of love we all hope to find in high school, and then wax poetry about staying together forever. Nell and Kyle seemed to really fit together well, and give themselves to each other.
Then Kyle tragically dies in front of Nell, a scene that Wilder wrote very well, and nearly broke my heart. She described the despair in Nell’s voice perfectly, right down to the mud on the tip of Kyle’s shoe laying in the rain. Because when you are in shock and a situation like that, you do see those kinds of things, and they do stick with you.
Nell is obviously destroyed by his death and nothing can console her. Kyle’s prodigal brother, Colton, comes back into town for the funeral, and they do share a moment, but only a moment. However, it is more than enough for Colton to begin pining for a girl he can’t have.
Sidenote: I think a lot of people might be squeamish that this is the story of a girl who is with two brothers at different stages of her life, but I wasn’t. I’ll touch on why in a bit.
Two years pass and the second half of the book begins with Colton’s voice, and it is sexy indeed. He’s damaged, but not dangerous (anymore). He’s not looking for anything more than to make his living when he sees her, and his world gets shaken up again.
The thing is, they are both still grieving. Nell is grieving inexorably for Kyle. She feels guilty for his death. Colton is grieving for the loss of his little brother that he didn’t even know very well – AND the continued loss of the family he still doesn’t have, because he’s an outcast. He doesn’t feel good enough for her, or for anyone, as a former thug on the streets of New York. Nell struggles with her attraction to Colton. It feels wrong, but Kyle’s dead and wouldn’t he want her to be happy, least of all with someone he loves already?
As two very damaged characters, I saw a lot of good in them together. I did feel like they made each other better people – and Nell was a completely different Nell than the Nell she was with when with Kyle. It was like a whole different character, and I guess she was, technically. Death does that to people, changes them. That’s why I had no problem that she was with both brothers at two different points in her life.
But the book was not without it’s faults:
He rips her panties off of her (literally ripping them to shreds), but she is looking for them later to put them back on. Some inconsistencies like that take place throughout the book
Other inconsistencies, like it’s mentioned he’s OCD, but that is never followed up on, or that he can’t read, but that’s never resolved either
This guy she was seeing in the first part of the second half of the book acts like he’s going to try to rape her. She does not turn him in, but let’s Colton and his old thug-life friends “handle” it – I hate that crap
The ending was kinda meh
And let’s talk about that ending. Nell misinterprets a lot, because he says he’d like to avoid something, and that something happens anyway. Instead of calling him, she leaves a note taped to her apartment door (which is stupid anyway, you’re inviting a break-in!) letting him know she’s “sorry.” But doesn’t tell him where she went. He of course deduces she went home so books a ticket out of NYC and without getting spoilery, all hell breaks loose, she ends up in the hospital and he’s declaring his love of her to their respective families.
They are still broken people at the end of it, and I know two years isn’t a long time to get over a loved one’s death, but it wasn’t a really happy novel, nor a very happy ending. But I still enjoyed the story. The thing is, I fell in love with Nell and Kyle. And then I fell in love with Nell and Colton. That is really hard for a writer to accomplish so I say well done.
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This was a powerfully written and performed book. The story is quite strong and well developed. Anyone can read the description of the book so I won't bother with details. Suffice it to say that it is an incredible journey from teenagers in love to tragedy to survivor guilt. And then there is the reawakening of love, inviting more guilt. The characters of Nell (great name), Kyle and Colton are beautifully written and thought out...the writers voice is clear in her effort to add a dimension of substance to them and she totally succeeds. There were more than a few moments that I found myself tearing up as the struggle of a lifetime ensues for our characters. The lyrics to songs written by Colton are another testament to the writer's total immersion into the depth of the characters and their journey.
Enter the narrators...Gabriel Vaughn and Piper Goodeve. They were remarkable in their perception of the characters and capability to translate the written word into an extremely well performed narration. I don't think it could have been better. It is very rewarding when Audible uses a male/female team to make more reality than often one (even a good narrator) person can manage. Ms. Wilder should be very pleased at the final result of this pairing...it was wonderfully performed.
The song at the end of the book is stunning and the lyrics spoken in the book. But this is an actual performance....my ONLY issue was that it was not performed with the Colton Calloway or Nell Hawthorne guitar as was done in the book. But, Hell's Bells, it was stunning. Five glorious stars to this book of pain, growth and redemption by two people scarred by the circumstances of growing up.
DO. NOT. MISS. THIS. BOOK.
I rarely give a 5 star rating, but this one earned it. First thing you should know is, this is not a young adult book even though the characters are young in the beginning. Nell is in love with her very best friend. They've been friends since they were toddlers and now they've gone through high school together and getting ready to go to college when Kyle is killed in an accident. Nell kind of spins out of control after that. It's Kyle's brother Colton that finally helps her find her feet again and find love again.
The narration is excellent. Definitely worth the credit or cash!
I Love a great supernatural tale, a Love story, PNR, a Cool Mystery and Most Sci-Fi....if there are vampires, weres or witches in it, that's a plus! Basically I am a 40+ y/o young at heart woman rediscovering the wonderful world of books and am now addicted! Lol I LOVE AUDIBLE!!!!!
always is...but I only listened...so happy Jasinda is now on audible!!
Oh my heart broke when Nell finally let it all out...I could relate to her so much...a sad girl faking it through life...never allowing herself to grieve...pretending to be strong when she was so broken...I cried and cried!!!
They were good together...I especially liked Piper Goodeve...I am partial to female narrators...I would love to hear more from her...but Gabriel Vaughan was excellent also!!!
This whole book moved me...it was eloquent..well narrated...and just enough sexy to make you squirm and blush a bit...the sexy in this book is very toned down for Jasinda...I have read MUCH more erotic things that she has written...this book has just enough...it was great!!
Anyone who says this book is just smut smut smut is so wrong...this has a GREAT story line...great developed characters and was Heart breakingly BEAUTIFUL....no it is not for teens....if you like Jasinda Wilders writing...you will love this story...I like everything this woman writes...and this is going in my top faves...it really touched my heart, and left me wanting to know more about Nell and Colton...This is one I will listen to again! LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is a high school romance with a lot of explicit sex. It is not appropriate for teenagers, and I don't want to listen to it.
The narration was great and the characters were so beautifully written you could feel their pain. I can't believe how much this story made me cry. My heart broke for Nell. You know the tragedy is coming so you just keep waiting for it, when it does happen you can't believe it. This book will put you through the wringer emotionally. Nell's pain and journey during/after Kyle dies is gut wrenching. I loved this book but I don't think I could listen to it again, it's so emotionally draining. I literally had tears streaming down my face. One tissue isn't enough. Make sure you have enough time to listen for a while, you won't want to stop. I think there needs to be a second book to finish up the loose ends.
By reading the synopsis you're aware the Nell is in for a literal ride to hell & prays she can get back. Some time passes when we get to know the new non- improved Nell trying to find her way back to the living. When she reaches out to her dead boyfriends older brother Colton they both feel like that together they might be able to make a change for the better.
More real story, less stupid play by play sex? It was like two different books from start to finish...I don't get it. It was truly hard for me to finish this book.
Not the sequel to this one, that's for sure!
The performance was fine, liked the narrators. Both male and female were good.
Disappointment....eye rolling disappointment!!!
This could have been a good book...ruined with so much unnecessary sex. The characters did not have a chance to develop because they were to busy having sex and talking about sex or thinking about sex...ugh.
The book just about lost me once it skipped ahead in time. N.Y. Part of story became irritating.
That Nell fell for Kyle's brother. So much potential there that wasn't explored.
Yeah. The narration was pretty good.
No, but I know there is one.
"Misery gets boring"
I cannot go on. This book has defeated my powers of endurance, I am annoyed to have wasted a credit but enough is enough.
First half of this book is the fairytale of Kyle and Nell. We know Kyle is going to die so it’s a little hard to get invested in him emotionally. Nevertheless they are both perfect. Perfect friendship into perfect romance into perfect sex. They have wonderful friends, wonderful parents, wealthy lifestyles. They breeze through school and life, without a problem, a zit, or apparently, a single argument. He, naturally, pops the question as soon as they turn 18. She wants to wait – but decides to join him at Stanford because, she muses, “Daddy will make sure I get a place”. During what is, apparently, their first ever argument, he dies saving her from a falling tree. And then the story really gets bad.
Seemingly paralysed with grief at the funeral of Kyle, she still manages to ponder on the colour of brother Cole’s eyes, the size of his chest and the tingle she feels when he touches her. As you do. She dreams about him at night and kisses him the next day. And then we skip forward two years.
Here are some of my (many) problems with this story:
· During the fairytale of Kyle and Nell, Nell never met Kyle’s brother – not at school, not at Kyle’s home, not at social events. Never. Ever. Cole did not leave home until Kyle and Nell were 12. Was he invisible? Locked in the attic? During this time he was apparently failing at school, getting into fights and learning how to build car engines but she never saw him. Ever.
· Kyle’s father, with political ambitions, warns Kyle and Nell to “be careful” It seems he thinks an unplanned pregnancy between two consenting adults would be more scandalous than the fact that his other son is running with street gangs in New York.
· Two years after the funeral, an unreal coincidence sees Cole and Nell meeting in Central Park and performing an impromptu guitar duet to huge admiring crowds. Of course Cole is so brilliant that yet another annoying record producer hands him a business card. I guess he can add it to the pile of UFC scouts that were also after him.
· Cole was part of a New York street gang. He admits to drink, drugs, girls, “enforcement” and alludes to murder. He walks around with a knuckle duster in his pocket. But the gang, apparently, let him walk away from all this to live a straight lifestyle. But they stay “friends”. And he calls them “honorable”. And they rush to help him save Nell from her rapist boyfriend – because we all know that gang members are such good guys and really don’t approve of a woman being mistreated in any way.
· Cole, having lived with gangs on the streets for years, then apparently manages to buy a building in Queens, big enough for a garage with a flat above. How?
Oh – and the misery. The endless wallowing in self-indulgent grief. Apparently once Kyle died, Nell was abandoned by her loving family to live in misery, drinking and cutting herself. She is so tortured inside, and so guilty and grief stricken and so endlessly miserable. She wallows in the misery, drowns in the agony. I just got bored with the whole issue. Cole admires her. Why? He only met her once at the funeral. And he tells her she is strong. What? This girl is weak and pathetic. She dates a violent underground fighter for three months, and then is surprised he wants sex? He tries to rape her, Cole saves her (another timely coincidence) and she then goes to his place and sleeps in his bed. He sings to her. Really?? I read from reviews that the book gets pretty steamy after this, which is weird. Because I would say this book is for teenage girls only. The dialogue is awful in the part of the book. The poor narrator was trying his best but no man talks or thinks like that. He was an idealised, sanitised version of the bad boy for teenage girls to dream about. He even kindly uses Windex and Pledge to remove the blood of the man he almost beat to death from Nell's floorboards and walls.
I love a good romance, and I love a little escape from reality. But I could never get into this book because it was just so far removed from reality that it jarred. People are the result of their circumstances and this is where this book fails for me. These characters did not make sense. Logic dictates that Nell would have gone into expensive therapy, her family and friends would have surrounded her with love and support and she would have, eventually, successfully gone on with her life. And Cole’s politically ambitious family would have had Cole in therapy at the first sign of rebellion and would have easily spotted a highly recognisable problem such as dyslexia. But even in rebellion things are perfect. Cole doesn’t just fight – he is so good that talent scouts want him to go professional. He sings, writes his own songs, and is so good record producers tell him to call. He apparently taught himself to rebuild car engines and is so good he now runs a successful business with several employees. He was even such a good gangster that his former buddies happily let him leave the gang but still “have his back” on speed dial. But throughout all the brilliance and achievement he is still so tortured that he cuts himself. And he has OCD. Whatever. Enough. Delete.
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