I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way. Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn't teach me how to live. He didn't heal the pain. He didn't make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
Nell Hawthorne is in love with her life-long best friend, Kyle Calloway. Their young love is invincible and life is full of promise; then one night Kyle dies suddenly in a tragic accident and Nell is forever changed. She meets Kyle's older brother, Colton, for the first time at the funeral. They both struggle to move on with life as best they can. Years later, they meet again in New York City, and Colton realizes that Nell has never really gotten over Kyle's death. She seems to be harboring a deeply rooted pain, a heavy weight of guilt, and regret. He knows he shouldn't get involved, but he can't help himself. Trust doesn't come easily for either of them, and they both have demons. Together, they learn the purpose of pain and the meaning of healing, and the importance of forgiveness.
Mature Content Warning: 17+ for language, and adult situations
This audiobook contains an exclusive copy of Jasinda’s original song "Falling Into You."
©2013 Jasinda Wilder (P)2013 Jasinda Wilder
Make it longer! Loved it and didn't want it to end. Great story full of tragedy and love overcoming the pain that follows. Characters were well written and realistic. A must read and re-read!
I did notice some similarities between this book and the Edge of Never. Both amazing however, the characters were just so much alike, only having slightly different background stories.
Gabriel Vaughan sounded like a computer most of the time. He was horrible at doing different voices. I dreaded when it was his turn to narrate. Not the voice I would have picked for Colton. Dan Bittner would have made a better Colton. He has more of a sexy, confident voice, perfect for a this novel's leading man. Piper Goodeve was awesome. Loved her voice and thought she was a great Nell.
Yes!!! Not sure for which actors though...new talent would be best I think.
I love how the book is divided into segments of Nell's and Colton's points of views; however, I wish the audio book had used both narrators throughout the entire novel. It would have made the segments with Colton's point of view better if Piper was still doing Nell's voice and vice versa.
I would absolutely recommend this to a friend. It was an amazing story that took you to places emotionally that are hard to explain. You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll cringe, you'll feel your heart break. This isn't your typical love story. This story couldn't be further from that. It's a story of true pain and suffering from a girl who most stories would picture as having the perfect life and in the end it all works out for the best, la de da. But not in this story. She has anything but the perfect life. She goes through some serious things but it's all so well written and so beautiful.
The author is amazing. A true wordsmith. The whole book is just brilliant.
This isn't your typical sappy romance novel where everyone comes out smelling like roses in the end. This isn't the same story you've heard 1000 times retold in a new way. This is a very different kind of story that isn't just about love or falling in love. It's a really emotional journey for the characters in the book and the reader.
This isn't the kind of book where you have a favorite part. The whole thing combined is an experience and you must go through the entire journey to truly enjoy the ride.
THIS REVIEW CONTAINS SPOILERS!!
I read the reviews for this book and dove right in. It sounded like a great, tear-jerking read and I was in the mood for one. While Kyle and Nell make a great story, and it warns of adult language and situations, this book seemed more like a young adult novel than an adult one. The skittish sex, understandable considering their age and the story, but just the way the characters interact with each other and the way the characters themselves are. Nell is immature and self centered and shows it quite a bit throughout the story. I expected it at the beginning when she was sixteen, but it showed when she was an adult also.
Nell is very selfish. Her boyfriend died, in a tragic way, trying to save her and two days later she is kissing his older brother? What? No amount of emotional upheaval can condone that, even for my jaded mind that was a no-no. And then later in the book she is a cutter and a drinker? I don't see how she got to that point, where were her parents?
It just leaves a lot out, and the narrator for Nell is pretty good, but the narrator for Colt is...bland. He is emotionless and it kind of ruins it. Maybe if I read the book instead of listened to it, it would have been a bit better for me. All in all, it is a good read that will have your emotions on a roller coaster, but the parts that weren't emotional just lacked for me. The emotional plot is very well written, but the other parts of the story seemed bland.
A lot of the time I found myself wanting to scream at Nell, telling her to stop being so selfish, that yes, her boyfriend died, in a horrible way and it was awful, but she wasn't the only one who lost him, and while I understood that she had a lot of guilt, understandably, the way she dealt with it throughout the story was just off.
I did like the way her relationship with Colt developed though, it was very nice (That I won't spoil!).
This is a heart wrenching story about Nell trying to get her life back together after a tragic accident, finding comfort and love with Colt, and it is a good story. I probably wouldn't read it again, but it still made for a good read, just not the best. If you're looking for an emotional release, this book will do it for you though, but I would recommend reading it rather than listening to it.
I didnt give this book 5 stars because it was just too sad for me. I listen to audiobooks to get away for a while from the real world and this story just was too sad. The characters are deep and the story IS good, but break out the tissues because you WILL cry.
I have a hard time describing this book. The first few chapters felt like young adult - teenage girl with a ton of melodrama. Think Twilight. Just when I was about to give up on it, the story and narrator changed to Colton's POV. It was refreshing to hear a new voice and the story suddenly seemed adult. THEN, it went off the deep end with extremely graphic sex scenes. I actually like some sex scenes but this was a bad combination of sexual detail and melodrama.
I was particularly annoyed when the book changed back to Nell narration and the the female narrator was now doing the Colton dialogue even though we'd already heard male narrator as Colton.
Some moments were touching and sweet and the dialogue felt real if not witty or clever. The music references were genius. This book would have been really cool with a soundtrack.
I have never cried so much at a book as i did this one. If you would like a sad but good story this would be for you.
Loved the story but wish the narration could have coincided with the book. Male voice for Colton, female voice for Nell. When they are both talking, why not let the narrators read the parts? Maybe there are rules.
This book started off good but went down hill form there. I almost felt like I was reading a different book towards the end. It wasn't a total bomb for me but almost. Wait for this one to go on sale.
You can feel the pain of the characters in this book. Nell is a girl that's headed for accomplishing great things in life but when tragedy strikes her path is changed forever. You get to see this perfect girl with her perfect life turned upside. The struggles she goes through is not pretty or glamourized, it seems so real. Their is no way the author or someone close to her didn't live through something very similar to this.
Although this is not really part of the book at the very end someone sings the song Falling Into You and it was so beautiful.
Playing the guitar in the hospital. I won't add anything else, don't want to spoil anything.
The hospital scene with the guitar.
Unlike the other reviews I didn't cry but it will break your heart for sure.
This is a book in 3 parts with two lovable male characters and a female lead who you cannot help but feel for.
The first part reminded me of my first love and the sweetness of your first everything. The slow realization that someone is more than a friend, that first kiss, all is described in such detail it took me back to my own feelings of that time. This part ends with the death of Kyle and the destruction of everything that Nell was. Her loss is palpable and the narrator does an incredible job of getting this pain across.
Part two is a different feel almost a completely new story. Nell is a broken shell of the girl she once was going through the actions of life but not actually living. We get to watch her and Colton teach each other to heal. To learn that it is okay to hurt and grieve, that the pain never truly leaves but one becomes alright. I loved the importance of music throughout this part of the book.
There are some exquisitely detailed sex scenes, an abundance of hurt and grief and the allowance of being happy once more.
Part three is the shortest its the what comes after. This cannot be talked about without spoilers so I will just leave it with a read this it's one hell of a roller coaster of emotions.
"Misery gets boring"
I cannot go on. This book has defeated my powers of endurance, I am annoyed to have wasted a credit but enough is enough.
First half of this book is the fairytale of Kyle and Nell. We know Kyle is going to die so it’s a little hard to get invested in him emotionally. Nevertheless they are both perfect. Perfect friendship into perfect romance into perfect sex. They have wonderful friends, wonderful parents, wealthy lifestyles. They breeze through school and life, without a problem, a zit, or apparently, a single argument. He, naturally, pops the question as soon as they turn 18. She wants to wait – but decides to join him at Stanford because, she muses, “Daddy will make sure I get a place”. During what is, apparently, their first ever argument, he dies saving her from a falling tree. And then the story really gets bad.
Seemingly paralysed with grief at the funeral of Kyle, she still manages to ponder on the colour of brother Cole’s eyes, the size of his chest and the tingle she feels when he touches her. As you do. She dreams about him at night and kisses him the next day. And then we skip forward two years.
Here are some of my (many) problems with this story:
· During the fairytale of Kyle and Nell, Nell never met Kyle’s brother – not at school, not at Kyle’s home, not at social events. Never. Ever. Cole did not leave home until Kyle and Nell were 12. Was he invisible? Locked in the attic? During this time he was apparently failing at school, getting into fights and learning how to build car engines but she never saw him. Ever.
· Kyle’s father, with political ambitions, warns Kyle and Nell to “be careful” It seems he thinks an unplanned pregnancy between two consenting adults would be more scandalous than the fact that his other son is running with street gangs in New York.
· Two years after the funeral, an unreal coincidence sees Cole and Nell meeting in Central Park and performing an impromptu guitar duet to huge admiring crowds. Of course Cole is so brilliant that yet another annoying record producer hands him a business card. I guess he can add it to the pile of UFC scouts that were also after him.
· Cole was part of a New York street gang. He admits to drink, drugs, girls, “enforcement” and alludes to murder. He walks around with a knuckle duster in his pocket. But the gang, apparently, let him walk away from all this to live a straight lifestyle. But they stay “friends”. And he calls them “honorable”. And they rush to help him save Nell from her rapist boyfriend – because we all know that gang members are such good guys and really don’t approve of a woman being mistreated in any way.
· Cole, having lived with gangs on the streets for years, then apparently manages to buy a building in Queens, big enough for a garage with a flat above. How?
Oh – and the misery. The endless wallowing in self-indulgent grief. Apparently once Kyle died, Nell was abandoned by her loving family to live in misery, drinking and cutting herself. She is so tortured inside, and so guilty and grief stricken and so endlessly miserable. She wallows in the misery, drowns in the agony. I just got bored with the whole issue. Cole admires her. Why? He only met her once at the funeral. And he tells her she is strong. What? This girl is weak and pathetic. She dates a violent underground fighter for three months, and then is surprised he wants sex? He tries to rape her, Cole saves her (another timely coincidence) and she then goes to his place and sleeps in his bed. He sings to her. Really?? I read from reviews that the book gets pretty steamy after this, which is weird. Because I would say this book is for teenage girls only. The dialogue is awful in the part of the book. The poor narrator was trying his best but no man talks or thinks like that. He was an idealised, sanitised version of the bad boy for teenage girls to dream about. He even kindly uses Windex and Pledge to remove the blood of the man he almost beat to death from Nell's floorboards and walls.
I love a good romance, and I love a little escape from reality. But I could never get into this book because it was just so far removed from reality that it jarred. People are the result of their circumstances and this is where this book fails for me. These characters did not make sense. Logic dictates that Nell would have gone into expensive therapy, her family and friends would have surrounded her with love and support and she would have, eventually, successfully gone on with her life. And Cole’s politically ambitious family would have had Cole in therapy at the first sign of rebellion and would have easily spotted a highly recognisable problem such as dyslexia. But even in rebellion things are perfect. Cole doesn’t just fight – he is so good that talent scouts want him to go professional. He sings, writes his own songs, and is so good record producers tell him to call. He apparently taught himself to rebuild car engines and is so good he now runs a successful business with several employees. He was even such a good gangster that his former buddies happily let him leave the gang but still “have his back” on speed dial. But throughout all the brilliance and achievement he is still so tortured that he cuts himself. And he has OCD. Whatever. Enough. Delete.
What a powerful portrail of grief and love. Highly recommend its one of those books where you cant stop thinking about the characters and how honest and broken they are.
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