• Until I Find You

  • A Novel
  • By: John Irving
  • Narrated by: Arthur Morey
  • Length: 35 hrs and 5 mins
  • 3.9 out of 5 stars (431 ratings)

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Until I Find You

By: John Irving
Narrated by: Arthur Morey
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Publisher's summary

Until I Find You is the story of the actor Jack Burns–his life, loves, celebrity, and astonishing search for the truth about his parents.

When he is four years old, Jack travels with his mother Alice, a tattoo artist, to several North Sea ports in search of his father, William Burns. From Copenhagen to Amsterdam, William, a brilliant church organist and profligate womanizer, is always a step ahead–has always just departed in a wave of scandal, with a new tattoo somewhere on his body from a local master or “scratcher.”

Alice and Jack abandon their quest, and Jack is educated at schools in Canada and New England–including, tellingly, a girls’ school in Toronto. His real education consists of his relationships with older women–from Emma Oastler, who initiates him into erotic life, to the girls of St. Hilda’s, with whom he first appears on stage, to the abusive Mrs. Machado, whom he first meets when sent to learn wrestling at a local gym.

Too much happens in this expansive, eventful novel to possibly summarize it all. Emma and Jack move to Los Angeles, where Emma becomes a successful novelist and Jack a promising actor. A host of eccentric minor characters memorably come and go, including Jack’s hilariously confused teacher the Wurtz; Michelle Maher, the girlfriend he will never forget; and a precocious child Jack finds in the back of an Audi in a restaurant parking lot. We learn about tattoo addiction and movie cross-dressing, “sleeping in the needles” and the cure for cauliflower ears. And John Irving renders his protagonist’s unusual rise through Hollywood with the same vivid detail and range of emotions he gives to the organ music Jack hears as a child in European churches. This is an absorbing and moving book about obsession and loss, truth and storytelling, the signs we carry on us and inside us, the traces we can’t get rid of.

Jack has always lived in the shadow of his absent father. But as he grows older–and when his mother dies–he starts to doubt the portrait of his father’s character she painted for him when he was a child. This is the cue for a second journey around Europe in search of his father, from Edinburgh to Switzerland, towards a conclusion of great emotional force.

A melancholy tale of deception, Until I Find You is also a swaggering comic novel, a giant tapestry of life’s hopes. It is a masterpiece to compare with John Irving’s great novels, and restates the author’s claim to be considered the most glorious, comic, moving novelist at work today.

©2005 John Irving (P)2005 Random House, Inc. Random House Audio, a division of Random House, Inc.

Critic reviews

“As ever, Irving is at his best with the family relationships he creates. They are simultaneously touching and infuriating. It is with these relationships that Irving firmly grasps universal truths and puts a chokehold on his readers…. Irving’s descriptions are distressing to read, but they force the reader to relate to the characters in a way they would not in most works of fiction.”–Calgary Herald

“Bittersweet . . . moving.”–People

Until I Find You . . . cuts closer to the bone than any of [Irving’s] previous works.”–Ottawa Citizen

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    3 out of 5 stars

Great story, annoyingly read

If you like John Irving, you'll enjoy this book. It is a very complex and long story (32 hours!) with lots of interesting characters and unexpected turns. The plot was captivating albeit a little disturbing at times (the child abuse story line is not for the faint of heart). The only thing I really didn't like was the narrator: his multiple accents were at the best annoying, in some places downright ridiculous or wrong - his German pronounciation was actually painful for a first-language German like me. He should have asked somebody to guide him who knows the language.

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Save Your Credits

I chose this book because I've enjoyed every other John Irving book I've tried, and was eager to fall into another. I really, really, REALLY wish I'd saved my credits. This book is terrible. It's boring, repetitive, and pretty much the only thing in it that isn't done better many times over in his other work is the way that almost every woman becomes sexually obsessed with the protagonist. If the character were an adult throughout, I'd write that off as author wish fulfillment, but it's kind of sick when the character is a small child. I'm a porn-positive person, but this isn't even pornographic - it's just tasteless and bad. I'm now about halfway through the second installment (of four), and am engaged in an endurance test to see if I can make myself finish it. This is every minor flaw found in Irving's work magnified a thousandfold, without any of the charm or warmth that makes his other work so worthwhile. Save your credits, save your time, I wish I had done the same.

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  • Overall
    3 out of 5 stars

Interesting but Disappointing

I'm a real John Irving fan, and my absoute favorite book is A Widow for One Year. I had high hopes for this book, and was eager to get started on it. Unfortunately, it was a big disappointment, especially when compared to A Widow for One Year. The opening chapters are too long, and I got bored with the descriptions of the main character's travels. The story becomes interesting - and very disturbing - when the young boy experiences sexual abuse at the hands of adult women. But as the story progesses this becomes utterly absurd and unbelievable. At some point I realized I no longer felt sympathy for the young boy who seems as perverted and freakish as the women he is abused by. I also found the ending unconvincing. If you haven't read A Widow for One Year, download that one instead of this one!

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    1 out of 5 stars

Don't bother

I am a John Irving fan. However, but like many writers, the themes from his first hits continue to resurface in following books, i.e., young man w/ bizarre childhood, wierd sexual experiences, wrestling, East coast prep-school....This book is WAY TOO LONG at 32 hours. I should have stopped about 28 hours ago :).

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A Favorite for a Lifetime...

To start with, Arthur Morey' s narration was spot on! I will look for more of his work after this. I am a huge John Irving fan. I love his honesty and candor. He has a very gritty, raw way of storytelling. My mother first read this book and recommended it to me saying that his exploration of the history of tattoo art fascinated her. It fascinated me too but, that and so much more. This was a refreshing departure for John Irving. His lead character, Jack, spends a lifetime traveling Canada, the United States, Europe and the Netherlands in search of more than he realizes throughout his journey. The writing allows the reader or listener to travel with him and in his search, we explore our own journeys. It is honest, brash, compelling story telling - one of Irving' s finest.

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    2 out of 5 stars

A disappointed Irving fan

John Irving is my favorite contemporary author. I have everything he's written, including his pre-Garp books. And typically, I finish a book even if I'm not enjoying it. I want to give the author a chance to turn it around for me. This is one of the few books that I just couldn't finish. I particularly wanted to extend the benefit of the doubt to my favorite author. I managed to get through most of the first two parts and just couldn't take the idea of sitting through another 16 to 18 hours. The first several hours are devoted to Jack and his mother moving from town to town searching for his father with the same result and recycled characters in every town. That part could have easily been condensed to one or two chapters without losing any critical plot points. The story simply takes to long to advance. Along the way, the protagonist encounters so much sexual exploitation that it made my head spin...and I work in child welfare. Irving's books are always full of deviant and bizarre behavior. But my favorite thing about him is that by the time the character commits such behavior, the reader has such a through understanding of them that their actions seem quite reasonable. Irving makes us understand that we can understand just about anyone once we hear their story. But in the case of this book, I couldn't even care about the main characters. My primary thought while listening to the first half of this unreasonably long book was "please...just get on with it."

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    4 out of 5 stars

Sooooo close to a 5

Rich, accurate character development in a great story. Loved the ending. A little more tragedy would have made this a 5.

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Not my favourite John Irving novel

A long meandering tale that comes together beautifully, it just takes a long time to get there. Unlike most of John Irving's works there are many unrefined characters in this novel. I liked it, but there are other works if his that I've enjoyed so much more, it was still worth the time though.

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John Irving, please stop

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I was once a great fan of John Irving. No more. I listened to this ridiculous tome for as long as I could, and then gave up. It's one thing to write about quirky, unusual characters. It's quite another to have them doing, saying and thinking things that just aren't possible within the confines of the character as written.

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John has turned into a perverted hateful man.

What would have made Until I Find You better?

John has turned into a perverted hateful man. this is the most hateful book i have ever read, John Irving has written the opposite of most of his previous themes of hope and the tough it spirit of people.

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