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Alice I Have Been: A Novel | [Melanie Benjamin]

Alice I Have Been: A Novel

Few works of literature are as universally beloved as Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. Now, in this spellbinding historical novel, we meet the young girl whose bright spirit sent her on an unforgettable trip down the rabbit holeand the grown woman whose story is no less enthralling.
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Publisher's Summary

Few works of literature are as universally beloved as Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. Now, in this spellbinding historical novel, we meet the young girl whose bright spirit sent her on an unforgettable trip down the rabbit hole and the grown woman whose story is no less enthralling.

But oh my dear, I am tired of being Alice in Wonderland. Does it sound ungrateful?

Alice Liddell Hargreavess life has been a richly woven tapestry: As a young woman, wife, mother, and widow, she's experienced intense passion, great privilege, and greater tragedy. But as she nears her eighty-first birthday, she knows that, to the world around her, she is and will always be only Alice. Her life was permanently dog-eared at one fateful moment in her tenth year the golden summer day she urged a grown-up friend to write down one of his fanciful stories.

That story, a wild tale of rabbits, queens, and a precocious young child, becomes a sensation the world over. Its author, a shy, stuttering Oxford professor, does more than immortalize Alice he changes her life forever. But even he cannot stop time, as much as he might like to. And as Alice's childhood slips away, a peacetime of glittering balls and royal romances gives way to the urgent tide of war.

For Alice, the stakes could not be higher, for she is the mother of three grown sons, soldiers all. Yet even as she stands to lose everything she treasures, one part of her will always be the determined, undaunted Alice of the story, who discovered that life beyond the rabbit hole was an astonishing journey.

A love story and a literary mystery, Alice I Have Been brilliantly blends fact and fiction to capture the passionate spirit of a woman who was truly worthy of her fictional alter ego, in a world as captivating as the Wonderland only she could inspire.

©2010 Melanie Benjamin; (P)2010 Random House

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    Christine Durham, NC, United States 03-05-10
    Christine Durham, NC, United States 03-05-10 Member Since 2008
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    "Wonderful...but missing the author's note"

    This is a wonderful book that is brilliantly narrated and well worth listening to. However, for some reason the audible edition does not include the author's note at the end, which apparently describes her process of combining fact and fiction and would have been very interesting. Not sure how they can call it an unabridged version when they omit that.

    5 of 5 people found this review helpful
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    bonnie 02-14-10
    bonnie 02-14-10

    DaWomz

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    "Creative presentation of life in the past"

    This book was surprisingly compelling .. I kept doing internet searches to read more about the characters and the background, even before I finished the book. The author convinced me she WAS Alice ... it felt more autobiographical than anythin else I've encountered like it .. and at the end of the book I decided to get a copy of Alice in Wonderland to read to my grand daughters.

    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Amazon Customer Orange County, CA 07-02-10
    Amazon Customer Orange County, CA 07-02-10 Member Since 2009

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    "Perfect Combination of Story and Narration"

    I don't know if I would give this book 5 stars if I just read it. However, Samantha Eggar's narration of the audiobook is phenomenal. She really voiced Alice's emotions perfectly. There were a couple of times that I just ended up sobbing.

    Now, I'm going to try to talk about content. Alice I Have Been takes the known facts of Alice Liddell's life and tries to explain the mystery of why Alice and her family had absolutely no contact with Charles Dodgson (Lewis Carroll) starting around the time she was 10 or 11 years old. I hope it's not a spoiler to say that I am very uncomfortable with the theory Melanie Benjamin bases this novel on. I did find it interesting to learn that Dodgson was a math professor who was a photography buff. When I did a Google search of his photos while listening to this story, I found it a bit creepy that he mostly photographed little girls.

    Although I don't read many historical fiction books, I have noticed that some of them try to include every detail about the historical period. It can be really annoying and too many details take away from the novel. Benjamin completely avoids that trap. She includes plenty of detail, but does it in a completely natural way. Her description of Victorian clothing and manners were especially good.

    I'm not a fan of Alice's Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass, but I was really fascinated by the story behind the story, even if it's highly fictionalized. There's one scene near the end where an elderly Alice meets the man who was the basis for Peter Pan. He's about thirty years old. Benjamin gives the reader just enough of a glimpse of him to leave me wanting to see her write a book about him.

    6 of 7 people found this review helpful
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    Cariola Chambersburg, PA USA 03-16-10
    Cariola Chambersburg, PA USA 03-16-10 Member Since 2005

    malfi

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    "Great Premise, So-So Result"

    How convenient that I finished this novel just as Tim Burton's new version of Alice in Wonderland is sweeping the country! The narrator is Alice Liddell Hargreaves, once the little girl for whom Lewis Carroll/Charles Dodson wrote the famous tale. It begins and ends with Alice, age 80, wrapping up a tour of America and relates the details of her relationship with Dodson. Was it an innocent friendship, an impossible love affair, or something more sinister? Alice keeps us guessing up until the end, dropping tantalizing tidbits along the way that, I confess, sometimes made me cringe a bit. The repeated motif is "that day on the train"--a day that Alice claims to have little recollection of but which resulted in the Liddells cutting off all contact with Mr. Dodson.

    Even more fascinating than her relationship with Mr. Dodson are those with her mother and her older sister Ina--but I won't give anything away here for those who might want to read about it for themselves. The remainder of Alice's life is a fairly typical Victorian portrait of a woman who marries a nice man who is not the first or even second love of her life but rather her ticket out of an unpleasant home life and a spinster's future. Years later, like so many women of her era, she has to face the trauma of watching her sons going off to the battlefields of World War I.

    My overall reaction to the book is mixed. At times, I was captivated, but at other times, the novel seemed rather a dull and conventional, like something I must have read many times before. Worth reading, in other words, but not exceptional.

    5 of 6 people found this review helpful
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    Christine Birdsboro, Panama 03-17-10
    Christine Birdsboro, Panama 03-17-10 Member Since 2006
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    "Solid Underpinnings, Beautifully Written"

    As a person quite familiar with the actual histories of Charles Dodgson (aka Lewis Carroll), Alice P. (Liddell) Hargreaves, and the "Adventures of Alice Underground" I must say that this is one of the most lovely, beautifully-written, and enchanting fictional works done on this subject.

    Yes, it touches upon the 20th and 21st Century conjecture that Dodgson (as well as John Ruskin) was a paedophile, but does so with factual convention and without salacious conjecture or uncomfortable accusation. (I personally believe Dodgson was not a paedophile, by the way.)

    The very intricate weaving of facts with fiction, along with the authentic historical nature of this book, is breathtaking for both those who know little or alot about the persons involved.

    In fact, the intricacy is so striking that I urge those who listen to this book to search online for the persons mentioned in order to fully understand just how profound and complicated this story really is, and how masterfully it has been written.

    A "must read".

    4 of 5 people found this review helpful
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    RueRue Orange County, CA 07-06-14
    RueRue Orange County, CA 07-06-14 Member Since 2013

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    "Alice after Wonderland"
    Would you listen to Alice I Have Been again? Why?

    Yes, it's a story and performance to listen to more than once. A wonderful story and fabulous narration. Loved it !


    Who was your favorite character and why?

    Alice,of course


    What about Samantha Eggar’s performance did you like?

    It was exceptional. She has a perfect reading style and clear diction. One of the best audio performances I've ever listened to.


    Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

    I found the story sad and sweet. Many scenes broke my heart.


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    LL CULVER CITY, CA, United States 11-07-10
    LL CULVER CITY, CA, United States 11-07-10 Member Since 2010
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    "Well crafted"

    I greatly enjoyed this story of the "real" Alice. The story is very well written and the narration was wonderful. One nit picky thing: the narrator changes the pronunciation of a character's name from EEE-na to EYE-na a couple of times which pulled me right out of the story each time.

    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Anthony Islandia, NY, USA 01-26-10
    Anthony Islandia, NY, USA 01-26-10
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    "Wonderful in Wonderland"

    Very insightful and beautifully written novel about the real Alice and Lewis Carroll. This book will have you rushing to google to read the history and check out the famous photo's Carroll took of Alice Liddal and her sisters so many years ago. Story is very well told and the narrator does a first rate job. You won't be disappointed.

    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Howdyholly Youngsville, NC, United States 07-03-14
    Howdyholly Youngsville, NC, United States 07-03-14

    A book lover with a romantic soul, but willing to take a leap of faith. I LOVE to get sucked into a story and live there for a bit.

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    "The story of a pedophile sort of but not... UGH!"

    I thought this story would NEVER END! Seriously, it was interesting in the beginning, but it quickly went to redundant and then just kept on plugging away. I lost interest after Alice grew up, but the story carried on. After reading the rave reviews, I tried to stick it out, but I never did see the hidden jewel that other people seemed to see. What I saw was a girl who's life was ruined by a pedophile and he went on to be loved and respected and she was a heartbroken little girl. It raised my hackles because I was molested for years and I am VERY protective of children. In the book, he never touhes her, instead he simply takes naked or near naked pictures and shares them with his pedophile friends and leaves her to the ruins of growing up in Victorian society. UGH! Not my type of entertainment at all!

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
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    Chelsea BOISE, ID, United States 04-17-13
    Chelsea BOISE, ID, United States 04-17-13 Member Since 2012
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    "A Great Performance couldn't rescue this story...."
    This book wasn’t for you, but who do you think might enjoy it more?

    I have to no idea who would like this story. I am flabbergasted this book made it on to the NY Times best Seller list.


    Would you ever listen to anything by Melanie Benjamin again?

    no


    Which character – as performed by Samantha Eggar – was your favorite?

    the performance was great I can't say I had a favorite character though


    What character would you cut from Alice I Have Been?

    While all the characters were essential to the plot the plot was just terrible.


    Any additional comments?

    This story was a great disappointment.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
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