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- A story of addiction, recovery and the removal of stubborn stains
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- Length: 8 hrs and 17 mins
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2020 winner of the Christopher Bland Prize
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Later, as a wife and mother, she adds alcohol into the mix, and before long her life is spinning out of control. Leaving home 'for the sake of the family', she takes the scenic route to rehab, redemption and reinvention.
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"Beautifully crafted and written, filled with darkness and light, compelling...She fights addiction with honesty and humour. And, like her, [we] come away changed forever." (Yasmin Alibhai-Brown, RSL Christopher Bland Prize)