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Tweak Audiobook

Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines

Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.
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Publisher's Summary

Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.

In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself.

You can also hear Nic's father's perspective in his memoir: Beautiful Boy: A Father's Journey through His Son's Meth Addiction.

©2007 Nic Sheff; (P)2008 Blackstone Audio, Inc.

What the Critics Say

"Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were." (Publishers Weekly)
"Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections….Endlessly memorable." (AudioFile)

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    RH 03-05-10
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    "EXCELLENT--SHOULD BE REQUIRED READING"

    This book should be required reading for Jr. High school kids, and again in high school. A great insight to the life an addict leads; I found it fascinating. He was very candid and the material raw, which made the unbelievable very believable. I do however, recommend reading "Beautiful Boy" by David Sheff (Nic's dad) first, as the insight from his perspective made Nic's perspective more "real"--some of the stuff was just so unbelievable; I can't imagine living like he did. I learned a lot about that way of life, as fortunately, I've never been there myself. I think every kid should read this book to see what "glory" is in drugs, the tragedies in getting high, the work involved in coming clean and the hardships it creates on your body. Unimaginable.

    7 of 7 people found this review helpful
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    Book and Movie Lover Austin 05-20-08
    Book and Movie Lover Austin 05-20-08 Member Since 2015
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    "Drugs - the most frustrating issue in our society"

    I read this after I read Nic's father's book Beautiful Boy by David Scheff. This book was a good accounting, from an addict's perspective of life as an addict. At times I wanted to reach through my headphones and strangle this young author and just yell STOP! Don't do that to your family. Having read his father's account of the agony the family went through and then to read the account of the relative lack of agony the addict went through (sorry, my perspective as a parent) totally by choice was very frustrating. Drugs account for multi-generational problems in our society and if rehab has such a low percentage of success (10-20%???) then what are we to do? For years we have heard that enforcement isn't the answer, treatment is the answer .... But after reading these two books it's obvious that treatment is elusive.

    14 of 16 people found this review helpful
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    David Porter Ranch, CA, United States 11-15-10
    David Porter Ranch, CA, United States 11-15-10 Member Since 2013
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    "Painful Journey"

    I read David Sheff‘s book Beautiful Boy about living through his son’s Meth addiction and throughout the read, I realized that it would be great to read the son’s perspective, so I picked up a copy of Tweak by Nic Sheff.

    Beautiful Boy was an incredible raw book of a parent’s journey through a child’s addiction, but I wasn’t at all prepared for the mental picture that accompanied the writings of the Nic Sheff. There is a raw, sort of, unedited perspective that is written with the mindset that the end result will be death, not life.

    Tweak picks up about half way through Nic’s meth addiction – after he finds himself cut off from his parents financially, turning tricks to make ends meet so that he can score his next round of blow. He talks about doing drugs that range from marijuana to meth (his drug of choice) to heroine. Not only does he have an addiction to drugs, he also has an addiction to alcohol and sex. This book is written from the perspective of an early 20-something that seems to only care about his needs.

    Much like Beautiful Boy, he highlights parts of his life that uses a day format. He talks about his stints in sobriety, some lasting as long as 18 months before the pull and allure of the drugs drag him deeper and deeper into his addiction. He lies, cheats, steals and leaves one of his girlfriends at a market for four hours while he goes to steal something from his mother’s house and then subsequently collapses in her garage.

    The vividness of his account is extraordinary. When he goes into a building to score more drugs, you can feel the emotions he felt – your heart rate increases when uncertainty surrounds. This book is much more raw and unfiltering of his experiences then Beautiful Boy. This book takes you deep inside his thoughts, his actions, the words that flow from his mouth in a series of explictives. His candor in sharing these experiences is inviting, but you should be prepared for the experience.

    I recommend this book, but I reco

    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Jen 04-08-15
    Jen 04-08-15 Member Since 2015
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    "interesting perspective"

    Story was strong but reader didn't seem to match up or bring the personality to life.

    It's still worth listening.

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    Belinda Somewhere, CA 11-03-09
    Belinda Somewhere, CA 11-03-09 Member Since 2016

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    "Life lesson"

    This is an amazing book after his dad's. I finished listening to it in several days. Although I was haunted most of the time by his up and down, I was really touched by his extreme honesty. It is a true achievement to anybody to publish a good book, and it's even harder for somebody finished a book while struggling with drug addition. Wish Nic can really get his life back. With his talent and his conscience deep in his heart, he deserves a much better life than the one controlled by drug, and his family deserves a better life, too.

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    Kymmee19 chandler 03-26-08
    Kymmee19 chandler 03-26-08 Listener Since 2007
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    "Riviting"

    I couldn't stop listening. I read Beautiful Boy first and was fascinated with Nic. I listened to all 12 hours in less than a week. Gritty, honest and yet hopeful. I haven't been so touched by a book in years.

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    Stephanie fairfax, CA, USA 05-20-08
    Stephanie fairfax, CA, USA 05-20-08
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    "Tweak....i loved it!"

    I was so sad when it was over. The Mom in me wants to keep track of Nic and make sure he is clean and safe. I loved Beautiful Boy too. Both were great from beginning to end.

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    Mary 08-22-15
    Mary 08-22-15 Member Since 2013
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    "Too long"
    What made the experience of listening to Tweak the most enjoyable?

    The beginning of the book when he was going through his addiction.


    Would you be willing to try another book from Nic Sheff? Why or why not?

    Too slow of a read. Could not really get into this book


    What aspect of Paul Michael Garcia’s performance would you have changed?

    Nothing


    If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?

    Prob not


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    pants 06-09-13
    pants 06-09-13 Member Since 2016

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    "I identified with almost every word..."

    this book is amazing!!! so many times throughout the book i felt like i was listening to myself telling my own story... i can't wait to read his next one!

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Kathryn Bakken 04-28-12 Member Since 2007

    Audiobook addict.

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    "Far Inferior to Beautiful Boy"
    What could have made this a 4 or 5-star listening experience for you?

    If it had been written by his father, David Sheff, but that would be impossible. His father's version of the same events from his perspective is so far superior to this effort that you can only be let down when you hear this 'fill in the blanks' version.

    I was intrigued to listen to this because David Sheff's heart felt book, Beautiful Boy, was basically a mystery at it's heart. Learning what happened during Nic's absences and how it all began first hand was a big draw. Too bad it turned out to be a non-mystery and he really wasn't doing much at all besides living a cliche.


    Would you ever listen to anything by Nic Sheff again?

    Unless he has matured and has developed some self awareness, it's doubtful. I was hoping for some insight but didn't really get any.


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful

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