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Diane Benscoter
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Diane Benscoter
About this listen
Diane Benscoter grew up in the heartland of America in a small Nebraska town with a loving family. At 17, motivated by her idealism and inspired by the lyrics of her favorite songs, she left home in search of a way to end war. She found easy answers to life's hard questions in the form of a religious cult commonly known as the Moonies. In Shoes of a Servant Benscoter weaves a gripping story of her servitude in the cult, the deprogramming staged by her desperate family, and her subsequent involvement in the underground world of deprogramming, culminating in her arrest for kidnapping. Often humorous and always heartbreaking, Benscoter's story carries the reader on a journey into the world of mental manipulation, providing compelling insight on how human vulnerabilities open the door for extremism.
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A moving story - well read and heartbreaking. Linking to current events and other similar situations was interesting and well drawn out.Moving story
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Authors shouldn't always narrate.
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I was amazed at the various professional participants involved. After my departure, they tried calling me. It was evil and though I was a young Christian, their logic made absolutely no sense. Jesus Christ is Lord and his going to the cross cleared the way for all mankind. I believe the Bible...period.
In closing, I will say that I wanted to read the book solely for content. The author (no offense) carried a depressing and sad tone. If planning to reissue the book, please pay someone else to do the honors.
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