Alan Cumming grew up in the grip of a man who held his family hostage, someone who meted out violence with a frightening ease, who waged a silent war with himself that sometimes spilled over onto everyone around him. That man was Alan's father, Alex Cumming.
Alex was the dark, enigmatic heart of Cumming family life. But he was not the only mystery. Alan's maternal grandfather, Tommy Darling, had disappeared to the Far East after the Second World War. The last time Alan's mother saw her father she was eight years old. When she was 13, the family was informed that he had died in an accidental shooting.
Curious to explore this second mystery, Alan committed to filming an episode of the BBC's Who Do You Think You Are? Then out of the blue, his father, who Alan and his brother had not seen or spoken to for more than a decade, called. He had a secret he had to share, one that would shock his son to his very core and set in motion a journey that would change Alan's life forever.
At times suspenseful, at times deeply moving, but always brave and honest, Not My Father's Son is a powerful story about embracing the best aspects of the past and triumphantly pushing the darkness aside.
©2014 Alan Cumming (P)2014 Canongate Books Ltd
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This is a book for anyone who has grown up with an abusive parent, anyone who loves a mystery, all those researching their family history, and everyone who has despaired and found the way back or is still looking for the way back. And for anyone who just likes a well-written entertaining read, with tears and laughter along the way. Congratulations to Alan Cumming for so openly documenting the milestones in his life, from his harrowing childhood to his eventual discovery of what is best left in his past and what he can take into the future. The story is beautifully told, the ‘then’ and ‘now’ format perfect for unfolding the inevitably converging dramas, introducing new facts as they come to light in the ‘now’ chapters, all the while maintaining the tension in the build up to the denouement. The book is all the better for being narrated by the author who conveys all the emotions associated with the story, and his soft Scots accent is delightful. Thanks, Alan, I suspect a lot of readers will be inspired by your story.
This book is brave, difficult and inspiring. The difficulty lies in the experiences described and the powerlessness experienced. The bravery and inspiration arises from Alan Cummings responses in coming to terms with this trauma. This is a book worth reading.
Fantastic story, beautifully written and read by the man himself. Only criticism I would make is that it feels a bit like a narration of an episode of who do you think you are but of course there are added dimensions. Really enjoyed this book and the insight into such an interesting person.
"An extraordinary memoir"
One of the best ever.
This is no showbiz memoir, although the revelation that Patti Smith has a tendency to spit had me in stitches. It's a heart-wrenching story of Alan's painful childhood, his fraught relationship with his father, intertwined with the slow unfolding mystery of his grandfather's abandonment of his family after the Second World War and subsequent death in Malaysia. Above all, it's a powerful, honest story and a wholly intriguing yarn, more fascinating than fiction.
Alan has a particular talent for bringing to life the women in his family: his mother, the formidable and clearly-adored Mary Darling, and his charming, wickedly funny granny. He has the most beautiful voice, too.
It's a deeply emotional story, and I laughed out loud and wept unashamedly in turns.
Quite the most astonishing audiobook (or indeed publication of any kind) I've heard in ages. More than anything, one comes out of the experience with deep respect for Alan Cumming as a human being, someone who refused to back down until he had found the truth he needed to begin healing.
"A heartbreaking, and yet heartwarming story..."
This really is an extraordinary book. I should probably start by saying that, if you’re looking for a ‘My Fabulous Life’ type of biography packed with anecdotes of famous chums and exotic locations then keep moving; this is not one of those books. Instead Alan Cumming has taken two key events from his life and, via a series of ‘Then and Now’ sections, begins to see links and parallels between them.
Alan Cumming is asked if he wants to be the subject of one of the BBCs ‘Who Do You Think You Are’ TV shows, in which the BBC delve through a celebrities family history to see if there are any skeletons in cupboards. As it happens Cummings is interested in his maternal grandfather, Tommy Darling, who disappeared after WWII and never came home again, and so he agrees.
But thinking about what the show may discover Cummings is reminded (as if he needs to be) of his traumatic childhood where he lived under the threat of his bullying fathers explosive temper, enduring a constant stream of criticism and sarcasm that nearly always erupted into violent beatings. Try as he does to please his father nothing he does is good enough, and Alan and his brother Tom are constantly reminded of how worthless their father considers them both to be. And so, as the BBC filming progresses and the story of grandfather Tommy Darling unravels, Alan often travels back to his childhood and the key events that help forge the man he is today.
As a parent I found some of these passages very difficult to listen to, especially when the father seems to take pleasure in preventing his sons pursuing any interests they may have. But the worst for me was when Alan retells the story of a particularly savage beating he endured over some minor chore not carried out to his father’s satisfaction. The anger and sadness that wells up when you listen to this story is palpable.
An amazing book, and one that leaves the listener speechless afterward.
Very well done Mr Cumming, dreams can indeed come true…
At number 1!
This book is unlike other celebrity autobiographies. The writing is fantastic, the story touching! And the performance brilliant!
Alan of course!
A very touching story, told brilliantly by the man himself! This book will have you laughing, crying, and taking a step back to look at life properly. A story of: hope, pain, joy, and inspiration.
"A truly wonderful piece of work"
Brave, witty, moving
Hearing the author read his own work is an intimate experience that makes the work immediately accessible, vital and very moving
He performs himself so...?
Alan remembering his reaction to the news of his Grandfathers death and his constant concern for his mothet
There have been many (too many) books about rotten childhoods but this is different, this is a book about an adult experiencing the revelations of his pass and refusing to go under, and finding a way through it...the link he makes between PTSD and abusive childhoods is more ground breaking than Alan realises...despite the subject matter this is a funny, warm and ultimatly triumphant and honest book...I'm sure it will dazzle and help many...so much more than a poor me book. I'd like to shake the authors hand.
"So Very Very Good"
I don't know. I never read the print version.
It was written and narrated by Alan Cumming and is a book I was really glad I listened too.
I suppose - I don't want to spoil it because if I said which scene it would spoil it.
The same scene. It was quite amazing and so glad it happened the way it did.
What an extraordinary man. He holds nothing back and this isn't a usual celebrity kind of autobiography because he hardly mentions any celebs but it was truly riveting and I have to admit that I heard it in one sitting and started it at around 11.00 pm intending to listen to an hour of it and stayed up all night listening. What a man is all I can say.
"A must read! It explains so much"
I haven't read the print version, but I think I will now
How Alan has come out the man he is. How all that he went though hasn't damaged him as much as maybe it should have, if you get what I mean!!!! If this hadn't happened I wonder where he would be. if his father didn't abuse him but loved and nurtured him as a father should have.
No other narrator could have done justice to this book!!!!!
I cried, swore, sorry!!! I wished his mum had done something, but violence within a home paralyses everyone.
I don't normally read biographies. They are normally self serving but this one isn't.
Oh god yes! Alex Cumming's beautiful voice reading his own story is perfect
Wolf at my table ... Another father and son themed memoir
Laugh, cry, smile, worry, everything
I couldn't stop listening to this, engrossing, entertaining, heartbreaking and ultimately uplifting. It does what all good memoirs do, shine a light on your own life and experience by sharing the author's personal history.
"A very fitting memoir"
Alan Cummings does not spare us any details of his father's cruelty and vindictiveness but this is a tale of triumph and so is ultimately uplifting. In addition there is the fascinating unravelling of the mystery of what happened to Alan's maternal grandfather. People who have viewed Alan's episode of the genealogy programme 'Who Do You Think You Are' will be familiar with the factual backdrop. This book extends this by detailing the emotional impact on Alan and his family as Tommy's tale is revealed.
I like to think that Alan's story this gives proof to the belief that love will always prevail, but whether or not this is true, it certainly shows that it is well worth investing in.
"A must read"
Inspiring, moving and in parts a familiar story of children suffering at the hands of someone who should be a loving protector.
"Well worth a read"
What a brilliant story. So moving and brilliantly read. Your an inspiration to us all, Alan. Recommending to all my friends.
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