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I Am Not Myself These Days

By: Josh Kilmer-Purcell
Narrated by: Johnny Heller
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I Am Not Myself These Days follows a glittering journey through Manhattan's dark underbelly---a shocking and surreal world where alter egos reign and subsist (barely) on dark wit and chemicals...a tragic romantic comedy where one begins by rooting for the survival of the relationship and ends by hoping someone simply survives. Kilmer-Purcell is a terrifically gifted new literary voice who straddles the divide between absurdity and normalcy, and stitches them together with surprising humor and lonely poignancy. As Booklist raved, I Am Not Myself These Days is "as tart and funny as a Noel Coward play, for Kilmer-Purcell is especially good at dialogue, and, as in Coward's best plays, under the comedy lies the sad truth that even at our best, we are all weak, fallible fools. Again and again in this rich, adventure-filled book, Kilmer-Purcell illustrates the truth of Blake's proverb, 'The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom.'"

©2006 Josh Kilmer-Purcell (P)2011 Tantor

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"As tart and funny as a Noël Coward play." ( Booklist)

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depressing

Would you say that listening to this book was time well-spent? Why or why not?

First of all, it's hard to listen to a story about a twenty something drag queen read but what sounds like an old straight guy. The story for me would have been much better if it actually sounded like the guy telling the story was about the story. secondly, i don't want to spoil the end but did it really have to end this way???

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I was sobbing at the end

This is one of the saddest stories I have ever heard. Yes, there are many amusing incidents, but underlying everything is a fierce and desperate struggle. I kept trying to reconcile this Josh Kilmer-Purcell with the successful Beekman Boy, and it was almost impossible. All I can do is marvel that he survived, and that he is thriving despite the sorrow of his past. His story will stay with me for a long, long time.

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Great story

Great read, funny at times, original storyline that leaves you in awe.

July 18th, 2015

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What a world

If you could sum up I Am Not Myself These Days in three words, what would they be?

A great book and introduction to a world that this Southern housewife knows little about. While I never was a fan of Jack's, and not because he is/was a male escort or a crack addict. I just didn't think that he was good enough for Josh or Aqua, I still rooted for them to make it. Now learning more about Mr. Kilmer-Purcell and realizing that he was on the Amazing Race and one of my favorite contestants, I'm happy that they didn't work out. I doubt that Jack would have made any of Josh's wishes a priority and taken the time away from the beeper to travel the world, and win a million dollars. Josh's new partner seems like a true partner. Good for him and I look forward to reading his next book.

What was one of the most memorable moments of I Am Not Myself These Days?

His parents visit, while the lies were grander in his life, there are always lies about your life when you are in your twenties and you are dealing with your family.

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Great Read, Hilarious!

This book was hilarious, I was utterly amazed at times thinking oh my gosh did this really happen? I recommend it!

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One of my favorite books...ever!

I read this book in high-school in the early 00s, it completely change my perspective on life in general. never judge a book by its cover!

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Mediocre

Should have been narrated by the author. Josh and the narrator sound nothing alike so it was a little hard to buy. There were some parts which sound totally fabricated. Like, motorcycles with kick starts in the late 90s-early 00s. No one had kickstarts by this time, all moved to automatic.
For entrainment purposes, it’s okay. I can’t buy this being a completely truthful account of the author’s life in pages.

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Great Narrator

Read the book years ago and never forgot it. Great to find it again on Audible. Kilmer-Purcell tells a great story. When will this be a movie???

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a metaphor for one's own life

listening to the narrator drone on, demonstrated aqua life! story worth listening to while driving

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Wow

A great memoir and beautiful story told excellently by mr. Kilmer-Purcell. Throughly enjoyed and highly recommend, although be warned it's explicit.

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