Seventeen-year-old Elena is vanishing. Every day means renewed determination, so every day means fewer calories. This is the story of a girl whose armor against anxiety becomes artillery against herself as she battles on both sides of a lose-lose war in a struggle with anorexia.
Told entirely from Elena's perspective over a five-year period and cowritten with her mother, award-winning author Clare B. Dunkle, Elena's memoir is a fascinating and intimate look at a deadly disease and a must-listen for anyone who knows someone suffering from an eating disorder.
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Elena Dunkle's memoir re-lives her struggle with anorexia, when it was a separate force consuming her, a demon working against her. This might be the truest portrait of this disorder out there.
She gives a vivid account of the state of mind that anyone with psychological problems, from depression to addiction, can recognize, highlighting the inner voice that constantly counteracts any acknowledgement, any progress toward a healthy mindset. It's a harrowing story that gives you a clear understanding of the disease eating up a victim.
When Elena finally starts to come around, she is again, so honest and so accurate, that you know that recovery is not a straightforward path, it will be a lifetime's work.
The extraordinary Lauren Fortgang does a bang-up job as narrator. She makes it nearly a dramatization, giving the memoir an extra layer of meaning.
I bought this book expecting just another eating disorder memoir. I was touched beyond words.
This memoir is truly amazing. It brought tears, anger, and small moments of laughter out of me. I have struggled with an eating disorder myself. Nothing to this extent or extreme, but it took up a chunk of my life and my "critical mind" was nasty too. She still is sometimes and books like this one have helped squander her voice. Helped me to want a healthy mind and body. The author is so brave to share her story. I believe her story could help save lives.
Inspirational story, and the way they describe the part of you that is always making you feel like less than you are really hit home.
Way up there.
I don't have just one. It was all of the answers to the puzzles that her Mother was trying to put together.
Loved this story and the narration. A beautifully told struggle, riddled with darkness and hope.
I enjoyed this a lot. It would have been nice if author went into more of how her thought processes changed when she decided to eat again , not hide weights on herself , and really get on the healing path.
It is extremely interesting to hear her thought processes while she is struggling with the disease. Much of the time, people think " just eat!" But Elena does a great job relating her inner voices and the struggle she endures every time she was asked to eat. I recommend this book, especially to those trying to figure out what's going on in a patients head as they are shrinking away to almost nothing and doesn't see it.
I was bothered to the point of distraction by the narrator's voice and way of reading. I understand she has no control over the sound of her voice, but the way she read with "a chip on her shoulder" the ENTIRE time... that harsh, angry tone... it got tiring very fast. And then the repetitive "voice in my head" that the author writes about says the words: "you stupid b*tch" about 40 times throughout. Sometimes six times in a row. We get it. You thought you were a loser. Your self esteem was in the trash. But putting together "you stupid b*tch. You STUPID B*TCH. YOU stupid BITCH", etc, etc along with the narrator's tough girl voice... ugh.
Other than that, it was an "ok" anorexia memoir. I've read many of them and there ar esome gaps here, like she goes from being very sick to deciding to get treatment without really explaining the motivation or what changed.
I would recommend the classic "The Best Little Girl In the World", to start.
Maybe, it depends on who was cast and which parts of the body they decided to focus on.
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